Not literally. Here is the deal. I started in January '06 and lost 76 pounds. It was easy. I counted calories and worked out, it's not rocket science, right? When I hit that 76 pounds, I also hit Wonderland...then I got complacent. I slowly stopped eating right and stopped working out. I maintained for a while, then everything started to creep back on. Then lately, with summer, I have been drinking way too much beer and that leads to eating way too much food at night....I do okay during the day. So now, I am up 25 pounds or so. I have gained back 1/3 of what I lost. And today I say no more. No, **** no, you are done. I am uncomfortable in my clothes and my own skin. I feel bloated all the time. My size 18 jeans are tight, if I gain anymore, they are not going to go on. I need to go to the doctor for my annual, but I won't make the appointment, because he will scold me. And he was so very proud of me. I have tried to get back on track since the first of the year (when I had not gained very much back), to no avail. I have actually tried 5-6 times and can't seem to get it together.
It is SO EASY to slip back into your old habits and old lazy ways. And I vowed I would NEVER do that. Well, I guess my word is not very good. Liar. Here you are. Now what are you going to do about it??
Here is what I am going to do starting today.
Track everything in Fitday again
Increase exercise
Keep busy.
Make better choices.
Lay off the beer and cocktails.
Quit beating myself up and move on.
Thanks everyone, I just needed to vent.