NOT!
But I'm going into a not-posting status for awhile. Hope everyone is ok out there and resting up for another challenge ... or has met all of their goals and challenges are no longer needed!
JoJoJo2: You do not sound mournful, you seem an introspective and inspiring person. I am sorry for the loss of your son and know it is still very difficult for you.
I'm not sure either why we tend to focus on the down side of life ... there's a lot of it, but a lot of joy, fun and contentment to be found also, even at the darkest times. I've found, as maybe you have, that weight management is an integral part of what I need in order to have even a glimmer of hope that I can find the joy of life or deal with its sadness. I believe the quality of my life when I was an obese person was simply not acceptable in any way. Oddly, it was the weight loss that led to my eventual freedom from eating disorders.
Not that life is so great right now, but it'll get better, so I need to keep on a steady course. Life is short and I can choose to live it with 100 extra pounds (it'd be easy to get them back) or just not go there again. And to not go there again, I need to continue to play the weight monitoring, eating carefully, exercising, streaking-behavioral game until I am 100 years old. Maybe then I'll give up.
But not today!