I don't need a kick in the butt, I know I have all the motivation I need but I feel if I admit this it will make it easier...
for the last week and a half I have eaten horrible. Gone over my 1500 calories every day (sometimes doublt that) and eaten so much junk. We have family here and chips, cookies, chocolate, and all sorts of things were brought in the house. I did okay for the first few days and then I got the point where I knew I was going to blow it so I just ate the crap anyway. I did the same today - we are going for chinease tonight (family's last night) so I had a nice healthy breafast and a good lunch but then, I was at the store and I bought that cheerio snack mix... and then I ate almost half the bag (prob 400 calories or so) - yes it could of been worse, but I need to stop thinking like, "well I am already going to blow it, I might as well go all out."
Anyway, I just want to get this out there. Tonight I am going to enjoy my chinease (and not think about the 4 pounds I seemed to have gained) and tomorrow I will be 100% back on track, I will be, I will be, I will be. Even if that means filling a garbage bag full of food that is left behind. My boyfriend stood on the scale last night for the first time in probably forever, he was a little shocked at the weight so I think it will be easier to stick to plan now if he is doing the same.
But I must give myself a pat on the back, this time, two years ago today my boyfriend and I started going out. I now weigh the same (or really really close) to what I did then. So I manged to gain it all and lose it all in two years! I must say I am pretty happy for that - I was actually probably a bit lighter but I gained that back haha. Everything from here on in is downhill!
but yah, back on track tomorrow I sware. and I will be honest with fitday again - I stopped enterting for the last week cuz I couldnt count that high in my head, haha
It was so easy before because I just never ate it, but now that I have started eating all this bad stuff I don't want to stop... but I will!
annnnd taken this morning
http://mydogkeiko.com/funny.jpg
LOOK AT MY COLLAR BONES! wooo they are coming out of hibernating!

If they are there that's just too much temptation. I'm glad we don't have a lot of visitors.. and if I did they'd have to just live without those extras or take them to bed with them.
*sigh* the head tricks we play on ourselves, eh?
but stayed within my calories for the day and that is all the matters! yaaaah 
But I'm NOT changing my ticker!!! Today I'm back on track. The two weeks were fun, I ate some things I really missed, and now its time to stop. Easier said than done.