Well, I went to my first WW meeting yesterday. I felt like I already knew the program from hanging out and reading things online last year.
I don't know, it almost feels like a failure going to a meeting, admitting that I can't just pull my act together on my own. I'm trying to remember this slogan I read from another support group: "Only you can do it, but you don't have to do it alone." Something like that. It still seems like if I need the support of a meeting I'm going to be doomed to failure afterwards, it's more the meeting succeeding than me, if I succeed. I don't know. I'm just in a weird state of mind.
Someone made Lifetime at the meeting. It was pretty cool, they called her the Turtle. She'd been going since February 2000, and lost 20 pounds to make her goal weight. Definitely an example of "slow but steady wins the race!"
Anyway, so I've got these points. I'm going to try eating on the high side (or even a few over) for the first week, to see if I lose. I'm not trying to lose fast. A pound of week is what I want. Also, I made an appointment with my doctor for next week, to see about seeing a dietician. I've been having horrid cravings for the past year, and my eating has been all flip-flopped. I gained 30 pounds in the last year. I'm thinking I need an overhaul of my eating, some guidance, something. It's funny, I know all the individual parts I need to know about nutrition. I just have a hard time making them fit into a big picture.
Hopefully I'll be able to get a referral to a dietician, maybe once a month, as something covered by insurance. I was able to do that before and it helped, I lost 90 pounds in a year! But then I stopped seeing the dietician and 30 pounds of it rolled back on.


. I still think slow is the way to go though. I am hoping that by doing that I can maintain at a higher point range.