Lame, but i need encouragement

  • Let me start off by introducing myself. I go by Annabel, and im a californian( california was voted, by the way #21 on the fittest cities list ) I am 5'3, and 125 lbs.
    Last year, ( yes, thats only about..... a few weeks ago!) i lost weight, yes, but in a very dangerous way. I was bulimic, and anorexic. But bulimic only on rare occasions- ( when i binged, that means )
    i went down to 112.... and then after my recovery ( which was God's doing ) i bounced back up to 125. And yes, its somewhat difficult, i s'pose. But its not like ive not been at this weight before( i started at 135-40 )
    Anyway, for the last few days ive been reading skinnydaily.com which really has motivated me.. but

    argh, that scared, weary Ann still hides somewhere within me... i do well with eatin gin the morning, have a yogurt, some fruit, then afternoon maybe a veggie sandwich ( im a vegetarian ) but by the end of the day ive already had 2 bagels after this, and some more bread..... and then some hard boiled egg whites..... because i postponed running, and now its 7:14 and very dark. i was home at 1:30pm.

    My goal weight forever has been 100. But now, i'm willing to just at least get down to 110. 110 will be a huge improvement. Gaining weight is not fun, as all of you know ( which is why im so thankful to be here )

    so yeah. i also do yoga on saturdays....

    thanks for reading/listening

    - Annabel


    PS : id also like to add that i am very comfortable with myself right now. Relatively, i mean......the bulimia was only my output of stress, ithink
  • Annabel,
    Welcome to 3FC. It's great to have you here. I've also had ED and know how hard it is to combat them. I'm a bit concerned though, I don't believe 125 lbs for a 5'3" woman is overweight. But that is only my opinion We also have an eating disorder forum here and you are more than welcome to post with them any concerns and rants or just chit chat with them! They are a great group of women

    Again welcome to 3fc!
    Michelle
  • Hi Annabel,
    Just my 2cts, but are you actually eating enough, and enough protein at that ?
    it is very easy not to eat or to eat very light in the morning, but then your bloodsugar can drop so low that you actually eat more as a result of that afterwards.
    Maybe you should try to add some snack in the morning and in the mid afternoon, and put a bit more protein in.
    As a vegetarian the protein may be more complicated but you could think of
    -brewers yeast , lots of protein but you have to get used to the taste
    -soy stuff
    -milk + beans combined (together at one meal this delivers a lot of protein becouse they cancel out each others deficiencies in aminoacids)

    good luck,
    rabbit