Okie everyone, I just had to come back and say WOW! I hadn't weighed myself goodness in a week maybe two, only because I had assumed since I was pigging out that I had either gained weight or stayed put. Well I weighed myself this morning... 356lbs! I think I'm gonna hit my goal before I go on vacation!!! Hehehe, I'm excited lol. Course I hope it's not stress weight like I lost back in February, where I lost 6lbs and gained the 6 + a few lbs back
April... well, yeah I saw it as 7 years was a long time. We actualy had two dates set. March 29, 1998 (because we met for the first time March 29, 1997) We both I don't think were ready back then, not to mention we only knew each other for year. He had more cold feet than I did tho. Then we set a date for October 6, 2001... Basically what happened here was, we got tired of living in the apartments, was paying almost $1000 a month and figured could do better in a house. Not that we could afford much. We got so lucky with this house. It was a nice 1990's home and it was what they called a short sale. Basically the house was going to go into foreclosure and the banks were trying to sell it off before it happened. Was a strange situation. We dealt with the bank but the home owner was still involved. Either way, that ate up our money for any wedding we had in mine. So by this time, I was in school, the VA is helping me pay for my tuition, I was given a grant and I'm thinking... I wouldn't be able to pay for school if I lost my grant. If we got married his income would be considered mine... and so on... So we both decided it was best to hold off. It's funny too... I remember telling James, if I have to wait 10 years for us to realize we are right for each other, I'm gonna be long gone before that... We've had some pretty ehated conversations about it. Because I want a family and to have kids and so on, but I want to be married before I have kids and I not getting any younger... but it just seems like as I've gotten older, getting myself straightened out became more of a priority. Not to mention seeing a lot of my friends go through divorces sort of scared me as well. I also wanted to get married in the church since we are both of the same religion, but even that's changed. James still has to go through Sunday school to get Communion if we are to get married in the church... The more I think about it the more I'm like uggg I don't wanna do that or this and that and that! hehehe... Maybe also another big motivation for holding it off is, I don't want to be a fat bride. *sniffle* I wanna have a waistline. I wanna be in a non-plus size dress. You know, before this, I was just happy to be 250lbs in a plus size, but now that I can see I can do it and it's not that hard... at least yet, that I think I can actually get out of plus size and get the dress that I wanted.... ahhh *sigh* I had so many dreams for my wedding, but now everything is changing, most for the good... that I think I could wait and hold off.
Did I mention ya'll are in invited? *grins*
But yes, you are right... 7 years is a long time to wait, if I said I could wait to get married 5 years ago... I'd be laughing at myself hehehe, but we're committed to each other, and I know that when it does happen... it will be a joyous occasion for us both. Yikes, and not to mention we're trying to save up again LOL. Hmmm, I hope this is not a bad sign, that I'm loosing my will to marry him... I still do want to, just not now... strange how things change... All I know is, God sent me him during a hard time and he's lifted me so high up from where I used to be. Of course he had a hard time with his life at the point as well. Was going through some rocky times. He's my rock and I'm his Anchor. Course there are still times I wanna ring his little neck
Alrighty, I'm outta here. I gotta go figure out what to do with my day hehehe
hugz to everyone
Sue...