Oh well, all the stuff I wrote just got erased, so here we go again. Going to try to be at least reasonably positive today, even though I don't feel like it. Well the whole day seems wasted. It's already 12:30, the baby havent taken a nap, I havent exercised and had an apple for breakfast. I feel like crap. I keep trying to pump myself up saying how I'm gonna kick butt and I'm going to do all of my exercises, blah, blah. But I'm still sitting here getting more and more depressed. I have to leave again to go get the stuff for my hair appt. Should be happy right? But I'm ungrateful as usual, I make myself sick. I just dont see how I"m going to go 25 miles to Georgetown, 25 miles back, stop to the store, get some milk, take care of kids, clean house, exercise doubly, and all before 6:00. Oops and I forgot lunch and dinner....which I should have eaten by now...Why do I let one mistake or mishap ruin the rest of my life? Just because I broke my schedule and didnt get on the treadmill 1 friggin time, I just give up. Where is my motivation? Which one of you chickies stole it?
Ok, I only lost 1 measly lb. Poo-Poo! All this kickin my butt aint making much of a difference, so why even kill myself for nothing. I know I should be happy, I should try to take off an extra lb today by exersizing by buttocks off, but why? What will I get for it except a headache, being tired and not getting the things I need around the house done. I just wanna pull out all of my hair and run in a circle screaming!!! Then I wanna go jump in the lake with the aligator and choke it to death and fry it up for dinner!! Then I wanna go run around screaming again!!!!
Ok enough of that bull crap...I need to slap myself and get back on track. Weight is not that big of a deal, there are others who have no legs and cant exercise, and others who have cancer or aids or other problems. Burn victims and Abuse victims, paralzyed people. There is a person right now that probably just lost their family to a car crash and I'm sitting here complaining about 1 freakin lb. I should be kicked in the butt by God himself, I should be happy that I am soo blessed that I have finger to type. I should be grateful for my beautiful (healthy) kids, my poor hubby that doesnt know what he's gotten into

, my family that I can still hug and hold on to, and you chickies who unfortunately have to listen to all my crap!! So, I am... I need to fall down on my knees and beg for forgiveness!!!
Ok....now
Satine- How dare you leave here with out speaking to us!!!

I'm just kidding, Have a good weekend. Congrats on the 1 lb!
Mscat816- Have fun and enjoy your day....but wasnt that yesterday's theme?

Hope you feel better & Have a good weekend.
Scuzin- I'd like to think that people would think I would beat the crap out of them too!!!

Just so they won't mess with me. Well that's great what all of them said about you, I just learned the same thing. How on the journals people actually value my comments I make to them, and they all made me feel sooo special when I was having on of my many tantrums. Now that you know how amazing you are, how are you gonna act now??? HMM??? Hopefull not like "Satine" who was too good to talk to us!!
Nah just kidding Satine, dont want my butt kicked, just trying to make jokes today to make up for about 30 lines ago!
Faye- I dont remember what you said last time except for the suggestions to me

(that figures huh?) Me, Me, me! Well anyway, thanks I"m gonna try that, my parents are both diabetic, so when I get there I'll get them to check my sugar....dont wanna pay 75 dollars just to get it checked at the Dr.
Well Mirabelly, sorry about the pastel thing...but I have been here all this time and didnt even know those colors were on there!!! DUH!! But I"m over it now!!!
Well I must go and get my daughter to sleep so I can attempt to exercise. Guess I'll do aerobics first then treadmill. If I can't finish the whole treadmill thingy, I could do the rest later. Oh well, Bye everyone!