Hello everyone
Holly: congratulations on coming so close to your half way mark! Keep on trucking towards that 150 mark...it'll come for you. You sound very deserving of it.
Bunna: congrats on the new grandbaby. there is something so wonderful and refreshing about a new baby. so innocent and cute...
i'm starting to become more comfortable posting here. i still have a hard time posting here due to the fact that i don't quite know what to say. i still don't like to face the fact that i'm a compulsive overeater/purger. but of course, i must face it and talk about it.
i didn't post yesterday because i felt like i had no time. but...i sure had time to hit the vending machine enough times, as well as eat three over sized meals. went bowling last night....and gosh darn it they had quarter hot dogs and fries....so ate that large "snack" around 11:00 p.m. Today started ok. still not grand. and it's always by lunch time that my binging begins. i'll leave lunch full, but then 5 minutes later i'm looking for something to satisfy me. and then, i'll get so disgusted at how much i ate that i try to purge it back up. even when i'm at work, i always look forward to the next time that i can gorge something down.
i have looked into our local OA meetings, and unfortunately, their both held on nights that i work. when things at work calm down alittle, i'll start asking for time off so i can attend. other than that....i feel like i'm draining myself with the stress of this. and when i don't do what i think i can, i punish myself by eating more...its an endless cycle of mindless eating. soooo frustrating.....
anyways...i hope you all have a wonderful night, and i'll chat with you later!
Aspen19
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