Morning, all!

I'm feeling some better this morning. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers! Just have to get through today and 1/2 of tomorrow with students and I'll be home free -- well, as home free as possible for two days!

Where is that snow?

Sending vibes for a good day to all! We can do this, you know!

Love y'all,
Christy

Morning All!

My computer at work last night was ating screwy so I never got a chance to post again. So lets see what I can remember.

Kat and Ellis- Go workout girls Right now I am just trying not to listen to my disease voice which is thoroughly beating me up for not lifting since last Wednesday. I have done my Yoga and I have been running around at work like a with its head cut off. This weekend I plan on a nice quiet one to re-focus and re-new my energy levels.

Jenelle- Yeah! You avoided the first bite! This disease is so stupid Yesterday it had me all mopey and melancholy over cookies of all the darn things in the world. The truth is it is the sugar I mourn and like my FP sponsor said, "Yes its going to feel mean when people are doing your addictive substance in front of you.". What I have to remember and know with my full heart is this is a progressive, killing disease, that sugar or food in general has never filled my soul as much as God, my family, friends, and you ladies (who are my friends and sister too! )

Christy- I got prayers for you. Lets both get our energy back this weekend. Put an extra prayer for me that when I suit up today I don't have a. a germ/sweaty people freak out or b. a confined space freak out. So far I have gotten away with being IC

Sarah- Your a beautiful girl and just keep posting we need your sweet spirit and your enthusiasm. The pounds don't excite me anymore. They scare me to death. I have fear that this is all a dream and I will fall back into my personal **** which is bingeing on food. I have to remember just for today, tommorow will come of its own accord.

Kat posts her stats. I don't want to concentrate on the numbers, but for today I will share with you my sisters the numbers journey. 21 Oct 2003 I broke my arm and weighed in at 221 lbs, today after 3 months with one binge I weigh 184 lbs. Yesterday in class they asked who weighed over 185 lbs, for the first time in a long, long time I didn't have to raise my hand. Can I say, Thank you God! for that ?

No chance to journal yet today so ya'll have to put up with my thought for the day.

Thought for the Day: The Bible holds new truths for us even in familiar passages. Ever since I built a personal relationship with my higher power this is very true for me. I use to just concentrate on what I considered the horrid parts. Like a man giving his daughters up to a mob to protect a stranger in his house. Instead because of my relationship I am able to see what I need. I know some people would consider looking at the bible, "Take what you need and leave the rest" as horrid. But my HP is okay with that, because thats what I can handle right now.

Wow this got really deep for a thread post. Hope I didn't offend or forget anyone. As always these are my thoughts and ideas and not a relection of the group as a whole

Love you all!
Miss Chris

Hi all,

Still have the crankies this morning. I journaled last night but came up with nothing. It does seem hormonal. I bet I'm going to be fun when pregnant!

Speaking of pregnancy, that's a reason why I do keep an eye on my stats. I didn't the first 6 months of my abstinence but have started to because I want the healthiest pregnancy I can have (DH and I are starting to TTC this summer). One way is to not be overweight. So I am treading carefully in this area. The scale is a factor but a minor one. I am also paying attention to how my clothes fit, etc... If I catch my disease chattering too much at me I appeal to my HP. So far, it's been working.

Chris - that's great about the weight loss and not having to raise your hand!

Christy - my sponsor gives me questions to work on for each step. Step 4, I believe, is a series of 12. So it's going to take me forever! But that's OK. I am still working on the first series.

Have a good day, all!

Good morning, dear girls!

Kat, you are so smart to be planning a healthy pregnancy. Most of us just "wing it". I had a terrible hamburger craving during my first pregnancy, and ended up with toxemia. With my second, I drank a gallon of milk every day and gained 80 pounds.
Hang in there... you can do this!!

Christy, the snow is HERE! I'm glad you're feeling a little better today. I hope the weekend comes quickly for you, hon.

Jennelle, if only students could learn that it's all about "playing the game". They just have to do the work and GET OVER IT! After school tutoring is one of the "tricks" of the game. It's so simple... why don't they get it!! (okay, I didn't get it then, either. I "get it" now that my own daughter is going through it. )
Congratulations on passing up the Sweet Tart!

Sarah, a four pound loss!! That's great, girl!!
That recipe sounds good... thanks for posting it!
You know, I actually had TWO sports bras on at the gym yesterday. And I'm not a big girl! (well, not THERE, anyhow ) Obviously it was the wrong combination of bras.

Chris, can we have a recipe thread, or is that too ridiculous when we're all doing different "plans"?
Chris, you've done SO well since you broke your arm!
Listen, when work is so busy, you just have to let go and know that you'll get back to the exercising when you have a spare minute to yourself!

Kat... "Aunt Flo"... I LOVE it!! Sounds like you need a little nap.

I'm going to write in my daybook...

love and hugs to all...

My goodness... where is everyone!?

I was wondering the same thing, Ellis!

Well, today was blahhhhh. I had a headache for the entire work day. It finally went away. Maybe I am coming down with something? I don't feel cranky anymore, though. I'm stacking it up to Auntie Flo.

I'm taking it easy this afternoon. Goiung to ctach an online meeting.

I am in an online meeting right now ( 5:40 pm Pacific, 8:40 pm Eastern time) if anyone wants to join me.

http://www.starchat.net/chat.php?chan=12step4coes

Hey, Ellis! Are you lonely? I've been avoiding the computer because my laundry room was completely out of control! So far this evening I've washed, dried, folded, and put away at least five full loads. Sheesh, how'd this happen?

I was just admiring Chris' and Kat's stats. Wow. I try not to focus on it, but honestly ladies, I really can't wait to see some progress in the weight loss department! I haven't been weighing; I'll do that again on Feb. 1. The last time I was on the scales in December I was at 248. Very close to my all time high. I'm really looking forward to getting down to something under 200. It's been ages since I've been there! I can't believe I'm even telling y'all my real weight. It's so shameful to see it in black and white like that. Even I ask myself how the *&%^&@ did I do this to myself?!? I don't dwell on that either because that is also the sort of thing that could trigger a binge for me. Doesn't that suck?

Kat -- Yeah, pregnancy is loads of fun mood-wise! I actually loved being pregnant with my girls. Textbook pregnancy and natural childbirth, I've always said, are my dubious claim to fame! It's so hard for me to believe that my girls are now nearly 10 and 6. Where did my li'l babies go?

Chris -- When I talked about your space suit, I was kidding around. I never actually thought you guys really suited up! You poor thing! I would think that would count for some kind of workout. Tell that to your disease voice!

Ellis -- You're such a hoot! I get a kick out of reading your posts. How's your book coming along?

Guess what I'm reading right now? The Long Secret by Louise Fitzhugh. Haven't read that one in years...now if I could keep myself awake long enough to finish a whole chapter at a time! I remember you saying you liked Nancy Drew and the Hardy Boys. Did you ever read any of the Trixie Belden mysteries or is that just me?

Well, I'm off to do something really decadent like take a shower and shave my legs. Don't be too jealous now!

Love ya,
Christy

Christy - it took me 2 years to lose what I have. It's coming off slowlllllly. But when I whine to myself, I give it up to HP and eventually give myself props.

I have never heard of The Long Secret. What's it like? Right now I am reading Game of Thrones.

I think I'm expecting Auntie Flo, too. I'm glad your headache is gone, Kat.

The Long Secret! How cozy, Christy! I've got that one, too! Have you read, Sport, by Louise Fitzhugh? My sister bought it for me a few years ago. I'd never heard of it before... I think it's the "last of the series".
Yes! I have almost all of the Trixie Beldens! And Ginnie Gordon. Vicki Barr (airline hostess). Connie Blair. Cherry Ames (nurse). Kay Tracey...
I'm such a child.
My book... fine, thank you. I worked on it today for the first time since before Christmas. It was good to take a fresh look at it. To my surprise, I still think it's good!
Listen, it's good to post your weight. We have faith in you! Perhaps more than you have yourself. Like Kat said, just let it go.

Kat, you must have read Harriet the Spy...

Ellis, I actually haven't!

No real reason, just never did. I was way into Encyclopedia Brown, though!

Is the Long Secret by the same author?

I'm a big fantasy reader. Also love non-fiction stuff. And OA literature.

I'm chatting in the OA room right now. No real meeting going on but it's nice.

sooooo sleeeepyyyyy

Crazy day at school today...we're taking "practice" state tests to see where we need to really concentrate over the next 65 days before the real thing. Test test test. Don't even get me STARTED on the No Child Left Behind (a.k.a. "No Child Left Untested") Act! So, I had my 5th graders until 11:00, and the 6th graders were useless when they finally got to me. And after school tutoring. Ugh. I really wish they'd decided not to have it today. None of them wanted to be there.

I have decided to get my librarian/media specialist endorsement. I would LOVE to be in the library...all of the fun with books with all ages, none of the grading hassles. All I have to do is take a Praxis exam. I looked at the sample questions on the web and it really doesn't look like a difficult test, so I'm going for it. I talked to my principal the other day about filling the librarian position if our librarian decides not to come back. (They might not let her if she hasn't fulfilled the requirements to be certified, as she is already on a one-year emergency cert right now.)

I struggled a little tonight. My son took us all out to Ryan's (it's a buffet place) for dinner. It wasn't the buffet that I struggled with. I'm honestly able to just eat one helping now without a lot of fretting and stress. It was the damn sugar-free chocolate pudding! I finally had talked myself into it being "okay" (after all, it's sugar free), but when I got over there to get some, I took one look at it and my stomach actually did a flip. It really looked gross close up...thank goodness!

I have to be extra careful right now...it seems for some reason that my disease is really speaking loudly to me.

Jennelle

Jennelle, go to bed, dear girl. You've had a VERY rough day!
Oh... to be a librarian! What a wonderful job that would be!

Yes, Kat... same author. I remember Encyclopedia Brown!