Well it is a nice morning, and the weather here is to be awesome. In the upper seventy's. wow. Today is Brandon's 5th birthday. wow. Can't believe it. We spent way to much money on him for his birthday day. Plus we are going to Mickey D's for dinner. I'm taking cupcake's and treats to school today, also have to go get my tags. I hate going there. It takes forever. Tomorrow is red lobster or something nice for a special time.

Eleni- i think it's awesome that you are doing so well.

Me; I bought "the book" yesterday. I figure nice birthday present for myself. I was reading the beginning, and noticed "me" in just about all the key's, one way or another. Even while reading it, I began getting antsy, uncomfortable, but yet excited. I want so bad to be freed from this junk. I ate icecream, cuz i could feel the stress of being "found out" sort of speaking. It was like Dr. Phil was in my head. Reading my mind. I watched a movie the other day about the lady that married the mayor of color. Pena was her last name. She binged and purged. I actually visualize myself stuffing my face. Pigging out. It's like someone one else has control over the eating. Yesterday definately wasn't a good day for me. I ate to eat. I hate this control that something else has on me, and I know i'm doing it for reasons, i just can't figure out the reason's.

I'm off to get some work done, and exercise, and give the cat a bath.
Later
me.

Wendy,

I hear you. I know when I am overeating as well. And know that it is aweful and I feel bad afterward as well. I am very slow at reading the book. I am very interested just way too much going on at home right now. It isn't too good but it will pass hopfully and get better. We will see. You stay strong and just try and overcome the urges one at a time. You can do this.

Summer,

I don't evy you girl. I know my life is a mess right now and kinda miserable but I certainly don't have to physically do what you do. I don't know how you do it girl. And to add the MIL to the picture. All I can say is that you are truly an angel of god lady. You take care of you when you can. Like eleni said it will be few and far between when you get a min to yourself once she moves in. Keep your chin up and remember you are only ONE person. Take care and I am always thinking of you.

Nita,

I agree with what dr phil said in your post the other day. That is one reason why I think I was doing better when I stopped watching so much tv. I can actually go through a night without eating. Before when I was in front of the tv during the day and all night every night I would eat more. The commercials themselves make you hungry. That is why I hate commercials.LOL You are doing great.

Eleni,

I am glad that your saturdays are freed up now that is a great thing. I haven't been here all week and missed why you are so tired. You were feeling so well. Glad to hear the eating is going well. Hope you had fun with your friend for her birthday. The movie does sound dumb to me to.LOL

As for me,

I am just making it through everyday. A lot is happening at home right now the stress is very high and so isn't my sugar. I do have the gestational diabetes. I go next monday to the nutritionalist and she will put me on a strick diet that I will follow. I did manage a turtle this week and I am happy with that. I made it through to the 3 month mark with only a 1 lb gain. They say you should gain 3-4 lbs. So I am really happy with that. Nothing else to add.

I hope everyone is doing well.

Sherri

Hi Everyone,

Sherri...I'm sorry that things aren't going well for you. Being pregnant should be a very happy time for you. Take care of yourself and eat right for the diabetes.
One of the things that stuck with me in Dr. Phil's book was the 'looking at food may make you fat'. I've heard a lot of people say that, but never believed it. Now he says it is possible.
Another thing that he said on his show tonight was: "There are foods that are hunger suppressors. They're filling. They're gratifying. And there are foods that are hunger drivers. They're addictive food and cause your blood sugar and insulin to just go nuts and you chase it, experiencing it as hunger".
I think we need a list of each of these. I hope it is in the book when I get that far.

Wendy... If I get this right, Brandon's birthday is today and yours is tomorrow? I'll send you a Happy Birthday wish tomorrow.
I have been having to study the 'book'. I can't retain it by just reading it. It has a lot of good stuff in it. And when you visualize, visualize good, positive things because your brain controls the rest of your body. Choose your thoughts.

Eleni....You're doing great. Congrats on the 3 weeks in the black.

I gotta go, it's getting late and I wanted to write a story tonight.

Coco and Summer....My thoughts are with you gals. Hope you are doing okay.

Nita