
I've been on this site before, lurking mostly. My story isn't unique, apparently. This is a good thing, seeing all of these similar stories. It feels great to know I'm not alone. What troubles me is that for literally 7 years after the birth of my second child, I've done everything to lose weight and continue to give up.
Weight Watchers a million times.
Atkins several times.
HCG twice.
Paleo/Whole 30
Crash diets and cleanses galore.
Calorie counting, of course.
With and without exercise. I have the gym memberships and the gym equipment. I now see a personal trainer twice a week. I've seen counselors. I swing between motivation and laziness, will power and resignation. I know the slogans, have all the phone apps, read daily quotes and inspirational verses daily. Yet I still can lose 20 pounds and then gain it all back and then some because I want instant gratification of horrible food choices, massive portions and alcohol. I WANT these things.
I also want to be thin again and be myself again. I feel like I'm forgetting her, though.
Does anyone else feel this way? When I first started, I had about 30 pounds to lose. 7 years later, I have over 100. This has to stop.

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Lemontart! I have yo-yo dieted all my life. I would go all gung-ho and then stop because like you I wanted my cake and to eat it too. I didn't want to feel deprived. I love sweets and I know I can only go so long without indulging in them. Now I'm on a diet that incorporates a "cheat day" every week. It's actually part of the diet, so I'm not really cheating, so there's no "falling off the wagon." For 6 days I eat low glycemic index foods and on one day a week I eat whatever I want. If you are interested in knowing the details, I've outlined it here: 