I've always been the "fat" friend, the "biggest gf I ever had" always had to wear something that was all black (because for some reason, Ashley Stewart would like all plus sized women to be neon colors directing traffic on an airport runway, lol) I ultimately would love to lose the weight but with gym partners like I've had, it becomes harder to motivate yourself when someone isnt there telling you, "keep pushing!", so I continuously gave up on myself.. My heaviest I was 330 (I'm 5'9) and a size 22-24 in jeans, and a verbally and mentally abusive ex didn't help...I dropped him, and dropped to 260 (size 16)...the goal is to lose even more and I hope that I could find my own motivation along with adding some motivation of my own!
mel
