Totally binged out today, I knew it was wrong while I was doing it but I could not stop it. Maybe I could of but I didn't. I won't bother writing what I ate but it was more than enough to feed a few adults. I feel bad when I am eating it but worse afterwards. In my mind it's like I can feel my chin growing. I feel lower than dirt but it still isn't enough to get my butt in gear. Yesterday at the grocery store, every time I would walk past one of them glass doors, I would look at my reflection disgusted, mortified, and embarrassed and I still came home and pigged out. Yep, two days in a row.
I gained 100 lbs in less than a year. I am 26 years old and I feel like both of my knees are giving out on me. I have gallstones that woke me up today. :/

Nah, you're not gross, you just enjoy food and use it to self-soothe like so many of us do. How about aiming to eat moderately for just two days? I usually find that a couple of well-controlled days can swing the pendulum away from binge mode.

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I really don't know what to say that could make you feel better... but gallstones? Well, you can try taking a shot of apple cider vinegar every morning to dissolve them. If you can't handle the taste drink it with a small glass of apple juice.

Listen to me good! You are far from gross! You are not the only one that does this and later feel bad about it! You are using food as a comfort zone for your emotions. Meaning, you don't have control and when you eat you feel as you have more control of the problem! I also feel when I walk pass or smell food; I feel as I gained 100 pounds! But I tell you, there are times when I want to come home and pig-out!

What stops me is; that I was originally 278 and there is no way I would go back! You have worked so hard to get where you are now! DO not let these urges get to you! This is your body and not the urges!

When I get urges like this I stand in front of a Mirror and say " Don't you dare do it! You have came such a long and if we go back; it may be even harder to lose it"!

Keep up the good work and fight those urges!

I'm just reading a memoir, Hungry, and he talks about just trying to eat moderately on your next meal. You have to let go of the negative feelings to get yourself back on track, try not to focus on the failure, but the success you're going to have overcoming this binge.

You're learning to eat better over all, but you also need to learn how to bounce back from a setback. Try and look at it as a learning experience.

I agree with the above. Also don't be so hard on yourself, take baby steps and just remember how you feel now the next time you want to binge. It takes a lot of work and change doesn't happen over night but you can do this! There will be set backs but you just have to come out of it the next day and know you will do better, keep your head up!

Agreed you are NOT the only one that has done this alone. I still binge sometimes (not proud of it) & pay the price after (feel sick). Try 1 meal @ a time kinda like 1 day @ a time. You can do this


YOU ARE NOT ALONE

You are certainly not gross! Many people, including myself, have binges from time to time. The kind that leads me to crying in amazement with how much I just ate, despite not being hungry.

Just look at what you did and put it behind you. If you keep your mind on the situation, you'll likely feel so guilty that it might happen again. Just take your meals one step at a time, and although you don't want to type out what you binged on within this thread, log it elsewhere as a reminder of what you don't want to do and keep yourself accountable! If they were foods you love, add them in moderation.

Stay strong, and we're all here for you!

Livelaughlove, you should also check out the binge free oct. thread, there are some good posts in there about bingeing, strategies to prevent binges, etc.

Do you have insurance? Is therapy an option? It sounds like you need extra support.

I binge today.
got a very stressful legal problem (email) yesterday.
ran/walked 9 miles today but still was stressed out.
so, I ate.
but I don't feel too bad ... today was worth it.
I am hopeful to shake this out by tomorrow morning and be the normal "me" again.

Hey livelaughlovesunshin, how are you? I really hope you're doing better. I hope you're able to get out of these negative feelings because they can be so hard to tolerate. I do believe that some of us are, in fact, addicted....whether it shows on our bodies or not. We are not our weights though. We are so much more than that and this is where you're at. I sure hope you can turn this around and then one day, maybe help someone else in a similar situation. I believe it can be done....there are lots of members here who can attest to that fact....take it one day at a time and be kind to yourself.