hi girls,
sorry to disappear on you. i was away in scotland visiting my family and then i've been busy catching up at work. but i'm here now! i wasn't too hot on the eating and exercise front last week but i'm back on track this week with lots of zero-point soup at the ready!
so - fill me in on all the gossip.
kirsty

Heya Kirsty -- glad you had a chance to visit with your family, but more glad to have you back here with us. I honestly thought I'd be the only one up and on the computer at this ungodly hour, then I saw your post and realized that somewhere in the world this isn't an ungodly hour.

I've just finished walking my 3 miles with Leslie Sansone. This makes 4 days with no breaks. Sounds silly, but one of my goals is to do this every morning while I'm trying to lose and 5 days/wk when I'm at goal.

Weigh-in is tonight, and I gotta say that I'm completely dreading it. That week in New Orleans wasn't a good one for me as far as food and points-counting went. They don't call it Fat City for nothing. But what's done is done, and now I deal with the consequences. I wonder when I'm ever going to "get" it and start understanding that I can't just quit for a week and come back and expect to make forward progress.

So, as far as that wierd situation, I went to lunch yesterday. Three of the four of us there were in that group of friends (I would be the one who isn't) and all they did was talk about their future plans together and the other friends from their group that I don't know. I honestly don't know why they thought I would enjoy being there. But I did get another take on it. Yes, I am correct, they are being completely rude by talking about all of these things they are doing that I'm not invited to, but they're not meaning to be rude. So now I'm in a place where I'm saying to myself "Self, I'm not going out of my way to hang out with these girls again. If it's easy and sounds like fun, yeah, ok, but I'm sure not going to put myself out to be treated rudely, no matter how inadvertant." I feel better about things now that I've just let go of the whole thing and decided not to care.

Looking forward to reading all of your posts today. Hi Laura, Kierie, Jess, LISA (where are you???), KT, Belle (who I can't help but think of when I do my "Belle"-y dancing DVD now)Jens K and L, Loris, Robins, and everyone that I'm missing...

Kirsty - hope you enjoyed your visit with you family.

Jayne - good job on the Leslie video's. I think I'd take the route that you are re: the friends. Don't cut yourself off completely because that could get mighty lonely - just don't set your expectations at being one of the "inner circle". It doesn't sound as if they are deliberately being cruel...just sounds as if they are a bit thoughtless...they've all been friends forever and probably have no concept on how to make new friends like you!

My eating has been terrible the last week or so. I did really well eating that the scale kept creeping up and instead of eating well for my health instead of the scale, I said "screw it - if I eat carrot sticks and gain weight I might as well be eating everything smothered in cheese." Am trying to work my way back to a more rational thought process today. Have been excellent with the working out though. My goal is at least 45 minutes each weekday. So far I've made each work day and I'm usually working out an hour or more. Unfortuantely, I've been very into ST and Yoga and haven't been making myself do enough cardio. If I don't take the new hire to lunch today, I'm going to the gym to read my book while walking on the treadmill.

Have been obsessing about my house. A trip to the Patio and Flower show to get information on the patio I want to put off the back of the house this summer plus numerous trips to paint stores to collect paint chips. I've got them taped all over the walls of my house right now - lol. I plan to keep them up for at least a week so that I can see them in diff. lights.

Later,

Laura

Good morning girls!

Let me just say Jayne, I wished we lived in the same town (as with the rest of the girls on this board), I have always been an outgoing and pretty popular girl in school and such, but since my best friend moved to NJ, I haven't had any friends in the town I live in in 7 years. I always wish I had someone to do things with, but I am at a loss. I just don't have anywhere to meet people my age. I live in too small of a town for play groups and such, and my kids are getting too old for that anyway. So, dont' feel alone!!

Laura ~ You are always doing something! I envy your energy with your house. Now that we have moved into ours, there are still so many things we need to do, especially plant grass seed soon.

Kirsty ~ I am so glad you are back. We really miss you when you are gone from the board!!

A big cyber "HELLO" to Ali, Jens, Robins, Belle, Lisa, Jess, our newbies, and all that I forgot!!!

I had WI this morning and lost another.5 pound, so things are slow, but going down. I am still not consistantly walking on my treadmill which bothers me, but I am eating healthier. I still want to drop 20 pounds by June. I need to kick it into gear!!

I am flying to NJ in a week and a half to visit my best friend for the weekend. We are having a girls night out, and then a spa day on Sat. I am really looking forward to it. I don't ever leave for a weekend. But, my DH takes a few hunting trips a year, so I thought I was due. Now that my kids are getting older, I feel I can get away for a bit, and feel like my own person.

Not much else new. Trying to get work and school work done today. I am single mom again this week. DH is working 2nd shift.

I am going to talk to DH to see how he feels about one more baby. I am considering it. But, not ready yet, even though I am getting older (will be 32 this year), I want to get this weight off, and would like to have another Sept/Oct baby, so I have some time. I also would like my son to be in Kindergarten before another comes. The cost of daycare is so high, so with both of my kids in school, it would be less expensive. I don't know, we will see. I do know that if I were to get pregnant now with the extra 20 pounds, after the pregnancy, I would have 40 to lose instead of 20. It is difficult getting regular fat off, let alone, baby fat.

Well, I am rambling!! I will check back in a bit....better get some work done.

Hey gals, Things are changing in our house! Finally! DH & I decided to make some changes together for our lifestyle. It seems like ever since he's been in school all we do is watch tv. We have no energy & are always tired & always sleep terribly. For some reason it finally sunk in to DH after me bringing it up forever now! I mean he is a tv addict. Before I met him I barely ever watched tv. Now I watch constantly & its not b/c I really want to but rather b/c I want to be with dh.-and yet we're not really focusing on each other. So we had a huge discussion 7 have decided to set time limits as to how much tv we watch. Our house is alway messy & we never feel like cooking. Now we are going to have so much more free time to get stuff done. I'm excited. I know these changes will definitely lead to weight loss. It is so much easier with someone else along for the ride.

Eating was crappy all weekend but good so far today. I can't wait to start meetings. My friend is sick right now so it might be put off another week. We'll have to see.

Laura, Have fun with your house planning. I can't wait until we get our own place. I have so many ideas of things I'd like! We're going to a home & garden show this coming weekend even though we only rent our place. Its still fun to go & dream.

Kirtsy, glad to see you back. Is it still winter over there too? I am so ready for spring. There is signs that our deep freeze might be over soon. Thank goodness!

Tonya, congrats on your loss! Take all you can get!. Sounds like you're going to have a mighty fun weekend! You deserve it. A new baby would be pretty exciting! Would you be done school by then?

Jayne, weird situ with those gals. Its so hard being somewhere where you don't have that many pals. THat's my boat right now. We live in a university city & so all of our friends that we started with have pretty much moved out & on. Right now we have two couiples that we're good friends with that are still here but one is moving in August & the other will move next year after they are finished school too. Sucks. It would be so great if we did all live closer so we could actually hang out. Why is it so easy to make friends on the internet but not in life? I guess the rules are different.

Anyway gotta go pick up dh from school. Hopefully I'll be back later.

Hello-I'm at work today. I've been OP since last Wed (my next WI is tomorrow night) but this morning I had a blueberry scone. Does anyone know how many points that is? It was big and it had a glaze on it. It was so good. I'll have to skip my dinner tonight. I'm still not exercising, I'm just so tired all the time I don't feel like it. Maybe I'll have more energy when I lose some more weight. Have a good day everyone.

Kirsty-Welcome back.
Jayne-Was New Orleans at Mardi Gras all they say it is?
Laura-I have that same mentality "I screwed up-I might as well eat something really bad for me." and I go way overboard. I've got to change that thinking.
Tonya-Have fun in New Jersey and the spa, that sounds wonderful.
Rina-Good Luck on your "changes". It is easier when you do it together.

Morning everyone.

I was at a funeral yesterday (my brother-in-law's father, who's also a family friend) It was a very nice service, the second in as many weeks (my auntie's funeral was a week ago Friday). Just when I thought I'd had enough, my dad got sick. He's been in emergency since Sunday night, there's no beds (lots of cutbacks with the government we currently have in the province) They don't have a clue what's wrong with him, just that he's sick and they have to do tests but there's no rooms to do the tests and in the meantime he's in emergency. Very stressful, I'm not sleeping much and I eat what I can when I can. I guess we'll see what happens at WI tonight. I'm mostly worried about my mom. SHe works at the hospital so she goes up a couple of times in the day and she's tired at the end of the day. Anyway, we're in a holding pattern so we'll just wait and see for now.
Jayne - I am not a subtle person, I would probably ask outright, how come you never invite me out? Or say something like, I'd love to join you guys tonight (or whenever) where and when are we meeting. Or I'd stop associating with them entirely. Do any of them have kids? Do they maybe think you can't get away because of Aaron?
Kirsty - I hope you had a lovely visit with the family.
Laura - Way to set a goal for yourself, stick to it and you'll get there in no time.
Tonya - It sounds like you have a great weekend planned. Enjoy your spa day!
Rina - congrats on the TV decision. I find myself mindlessly flipping channels when I should be studying. I hope some of your TV time still includes Survivor thursday!
Wendy - you're almost at the 1 week OP - way to go! Good luck at WI!

OK, back to distracting myself with other work. My brother just e-mailed me to tell me his daughter is headed into emergency too, I'm hopeful that this will all turn out alright.
KT

Hey girls!

Kirsty - tell us more about scotland! I've always wanted to visit

Jayne - those ppl just sound weird now. if i were you, i would just forget about em and stick to hanging out with the other friends you have made. i think you are right, you don't need that aggravation!

Laura - I do that to myself too, and tehn end up binging and then the ED takes over. I really have to change my train of thought to "ok, you screwed up. live with it and move on" or "you screwed up. go to the gym for an hour". its very hard to do, i totally understand! If you ever want to talk about it or need help, PM me and we can help eachother along.

Tonya - .5 is awesome, at least you didnt' gain Let us know when you figure out that baby situation. It seems like EVERYONE here is PG!!!

Rina - WTG on the TV. I do that too much too. I've decided I must go to the gym at least 5 days a week and that I am required to go on Sat. and Sun. (so 3 days during the work week). Then I don't feel so bad watching tv. I just started that last week as a goal to make for every week. I'm going to the gym BEFORE the bruins game is on tonight!

Robin - A scone is 6 points, i believe. Good to see you have been sticking with it now for a while!

KT - sorry to hear about everything. I am sending good luck vibes your way and a big hug. I hope everything turns out ok for your dad and your neice. BTW, wouldn't your brother-in-law's father be your father-in-law? or does your husband and brother have different dads?

Well, today has been really good so far and I plan on going to the gym in 40 minutes. I have been so good since Friday. Gym every day, and staying OP, and not letting the ED get to me. I even saw that counsellor today and she is really nice. I'm going to go every week for a while, and then we'll see what happens.

Hope everyone has a wonderful day! I love that cow!

I think everyone missed that I posted yesterday. Well, HI again.

Hi Jen.

Hi Jen - I wasn't here yesterday. How's the job going?
Lori - it's my sister's husband (my BIL) so he's my sister's father in law not mine. I'm single and loving it.
KT

HI all, I'm having a slow day at work so I came home for awhile. I have to go back in an hour.

KT, so sorry to hear about your Dad. How is your neice? I hope that everything turns out good.

Jen, I read your post yesterday but I never found time to reply. Sorry. You aren't invisible really. Is Emma's ear better? How long until your mat leave starts? Are you counting down?

Lori, glad to hear your seeing a nice counsellor. Our time limit on tv doesn't include hockey games! The battle of Alberta tonight so dh & I are psyched! I'm glad the trade deadline is finally passed. The GM of my team is so dumb. He traded to get a guy that he traded to get rid of in November! Argh!

Robin, hope you're not as tired today.

So big happenings at my job. The owner has been quite sick for the past year but they haven't been able to really nail down what's going on. They finally decided that she has cancer & that sher only has a few months left. Its really sad. On top of that she hasn't said what the palns are for that business. We're all stressed about our futures. Right now we rent space & are covered under her business name even though we're considered self-employed. None of us can really afford to buy the place. I don't know what's going to happen. In two weeks we're going to have a meeting to discuss what's happening. Its really hard to go about the day with this hanging over all of our heads. Anyway that's what's going on. I'm trying not to stress-eat.

I'll talk to you all later.

Rina - that's scary to think of that stuff happening. Maybe one of you can do a small business loan or something and take the place over? Or maybe she'll let you take your clients to another place? I hope things work out.
KT