I started out my day pretty well and I had a relatively healthy lunch. But then I went out with my fiance and to pick up my final paycheck from where I worked (I quit my job yesterday and am starting a new one on Monday), and on the way my fiance asked me to get him a sandwich from Wendy's.. I was kind of hungry and I decided to get a sandwich too. I didn't feel too bad about that, because I was still within my calorie limit for the day, but then my fiance and I went to look at apartments and on the way home we found a diner. We love diners and haven't seen one since we moved away from Denver a few months ago (we live in a small town now and there isn't really anything out here).. so we stopped for supper at the diner and I ordered a burger. I felt guilty as soon as I took the first bite, but it was my dinner and I was hungry and we can't afford to not at least eat our fill. I didn't finish the burger, but I ate enough of it to feel bad. Well.. afterward we decided to go for a celebratory ice cream, since my fiance starts a new job tomorrow, I start a new one on Monday and my birthday is on Sunday. I knew I shouldn't eat the ice cream, and I got frozen yogurt. It's been a loooong time since I ate so much I got a stomachache.. but it happened tonight.
I just feel terrible. My body is not happy with me, but most importantly, I am not happy with myself. I know that tomorrow is a new day and a chance to start over, and I'm not going to let tonight set me back, but I'm just so disappointed in myself. I know that cheeseburgers are my trigger, and I know better than to even let myself think that it's okay to eat one, but I had a major lapse in judgement today and I feel bad. I even recently had a significant nsv, where I bought new pants and shirts and they were a size smaller than before. How could I sabotage myself so badly when I was so proud of myself just a few days ago. Ugh.
Just needed to get it off my chest so I wouldn't dwell on it..

