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Originally Posted by princessgina00
I'm curious, sontaikle. Were you happy with your body 10-15 pounds ago when you thought you weighed between 141-146? Or did you simply want to reach goal no matter how you looked? In other words, if you had known that you had actually reached goal 10-15 pounds ago, would you have actively stopped trying to lose weight or would you have continued? I ask because a lot of 3FCers claim that they are not slaves to the scale and that they will know their goal weight when they reach it. But then they become slaves to their scale and only stop losing weight because they've reached their predetermined goal weight. It's never clear if they are happy with their bodies only because they reached goal or if they were actually happy with their bodies before they reached goal and simply continued to lose weight because they really wanted to reach their goal. Your situation is a unique one considering the unreliability of your scale, so I would be interested in your response.
This is something I've been trying to figure out. Did I like the way I looked when I thought I was 146 pounds (and interestingly I have pictures of me in a tight dress at that time)? Or did I want to go lower because of the scale? Would I have stopped then because I was at my goal?
I've thought about it a lot and I think the scale really did me a favor being broken. I don't think I would have ever gone past 130 had I known when I actually got there or I would have started getting alarmed. I was happy with myself 15 pounds ago, but I wasn't
satisfied. When I hit the weight I am now (which is where my body seems to be settling) I'm actually pretty darn happy. I dont have a perfect body (but nobody ever will

), but I feel like I'm a heck of a lot better than I was 15 pounds ago.
Although this all also explains why I'm getting to the point where if I lost a few more pounds my ribs will start sticking out too much! I shouldn't have been there at 131 pounds, but if I truly am large-framed (or perhaps medium-large) then it certainly makes sense at 121 pounds!
I kind of freaked out when I found out I was really 121 pounds, but I should have seen this earlier. I had plenty of signs—my wii fit always weighed me in 10lbs lighter, the scale at the gym weighed me in lighter and I was a smaller sizes than others at the weight I thought I was—but I guess I ignored them for some reason. Maybe I couldn't handle it? I'm not sure. This whole weight loss thing is psychological as much as it is physical.
I guess when you've been told your whole life that you can't ever be "small" that it does a number on you.