Thanks everyone!

I just ate three eggs. At least they are good for me. But I still want some junk food. I would go walking as this helps but it is raining outside. I could slip in a Leslie Sanone dvd to do. I did four miles yesterday since it also rained yesterday. Boo!
I will try to remember how far I have come and where I want to be. Part of me would love to be 199 but there is another part of me that is scared of it. I have admittedly been thinking skinny equals happy and I know this is not true. But skinny does equal healthy. I will try to concentrate on the healthy part until the urge to eat everything in sight passes. At least I hope it will pass. I am full right now but still hungry. My body namely my stomach is betraying me and my goals right now. I have also started on a glass of milk which is helping somewhat. I just need to do something.
Oh in answer to one of your questions I am calorie counting. It is the only thing that works for me. When I was 17 I went on NutraSystem. I lost 24 pounds back then. I went from 155 to 131 and felt great about my self at 131. Unfortunatly later that felt big to me. I got down to 111 once but everyone said I was to small so I gained back 20 then due to some pills I had to take I gained a additional 100.

I want to feel good about myself again and look good and be healthy. I have never at any weight had guys look at me except when I was 19 and they all wanted ONE thing. You can probably guess what that ONE thing was.
Anyhow I just need to think healthly. NO shortness of breath no painful walking. NO sore feet from walking because of my weight no back pain from being stupped over. Healthy I want to be Healthy. of and eat some choclate! He he:-)