Hi all- I don't know if anyone here remembers me, but I have been here off and on the last few years. My last stint here I lost 44 pounds. Now I have gained 14 back. I feel like crap and I am seriously addicted to sugar and carbs. I know the answer is probably go cold turkey even though when I lost the 44 pounds I was eating sugar and carbs. The problem is the more I eat, the more I want until finally I have lost all control.
Today is the first day in a long while I haven't already binged by this time. The last couple of weeks have been really, really, bad. Two days ago I ate a whole half gallon of Bluebell's Banana Pudding ice cream - almost entirely by myself. When there is no easy access to sugar in the form of chocolate candy, cake or ice cream I am eating cereal and breads. One nigh last week I made a banana brea loaf, ate half that night and the other half first thing in the morning before 7 am! I am scaring the **** out of myself. I do not want to gain back anymore. I feel powerless and don't know what to do.
Today as been ok. I had a cup of coffee with two tablespoons of chocolate caramel creamer, but honestly I don't enjoy the coffee anymore. I had 3 eggs and 2 servings of bacon. About an hour ago I ate a can of tuna. I know it isn't enough, but I am afraid of eating carbs because they trigger me. I am also drinking water.
I feel so scared, embarassed and foolish. I have a happy marriage, great kids and good friends, so why do I need to stuff myself? There are stresses in my life, but I don't want to use them as an excuse. I think my bottom line is I love sweets and I am addicted. It sounds like such a copout, but I literally feel like I have no say when I am bingeing. It's crazy.
Anyway, I humbly arrive back here hoping to find support and inspiration. I need strength to get back on plan and strength to let go of the sugar and massive amounts of carbs.



You can do this! We all hit bumps but it's what you do after the bump that counts. You can do this!
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