Hi all - just starting a new thread as it's May now.

Weighed in at 145 this morning after a week of decorating and using it as an excuse to not really eat very well.

But today I start again - again!

Oh gosh. I can't believe I posted in April on May 1st! Or that it's May!!! Graduation is so daunting, and so soon...

Presenting my senior thesis at a panel today. I'm a total ball of nerves. I know I could binge on cereal right now if I let myself. Weighing in at 119, a lb up from yesterday, has me thinking that eating intuitively didn't work at all... ugh. I don't even know.

I think going forward, I'm going to try to stick to a no dairy, no processed grains, vegetarian diet with as few sugars as possible. Which means I'll have eggs, vegetables, fruit, legumes and nuts. For the next few days at least.

Good luck lacksadaisy! I'll be doing that in a few months!

I baked cookies yesterday, yummm but bad news for my diet! They had wholewheat flour, no sugar, a bit of butter but lots of nuts and chocolate. Hohum, they were nice!

This weekend was an eating fest as it was our year anniversary ( ) so obviously dinner / cocktails etc were on the menu. I've got the stopping eating when I'm full down, but the not eating biscuits/chocolate when I'm not hungry still alludes me!! On the plus side, nice aubergine and lentil curry for tonight and then the IF window shuts until 1pm tomorrow.

I've decided to do IF Mon-Friday and eat breakfast at the weekend (because I love brunch too much!). So far, so easy! I drink way more water at work too, bonus!

Have a good day

130lbs of bloat/retention from eating this weekend, and having a gigantic burrito from Taco Bell last night.

Work is crazy, stress is making me not eat for long periods, then eat a lot in a sitting.

Hope I can get it under control, would really like to see 125 on Memorial day. I was 127.8 on Friday.

After a day of overeating primarily healthful things -- but still too much food nonetheless -- I went to a formal dance last night (alone). This is kind of humiliating to admit, but important: my much-larger best friend who is also very flirtatious (and was very drunk) was aggressively hit on by a stranger and ended up spending the evening dancing and making out with him; sober, thinner, me was not; after the formal, I ate almost 1000 calories more of straight carbs (cereal, granola, cake, crackers, hummus, more cereal).

I don't want to count how much I ate yesterday... it is definitely about 2500, maybe even 3000. Nor do I want to think about what set it off: realizing that having lost ten pounds didn't actually make me more attractive or change how I experience social interactions. I managed to do all this damage to myself while completely vegetarian and eating lots of fruits/veg/fiber... I just couldn't stop eating. So, yes, I suffered indigestion too.

But today is a new day. Today I will actually remain in control without counting calories. But I will only eat raw vegan foods at mealtimes. Raw veganism helped me fix myself in the past and I am going to try to stick it out (recognizing the withdrawal symptoms for what they are: awful) for a week, and see how I feel then.

Claire, the cookies sound perfect. Good job to everyone and happy May! don't you just love May?

Well, my update is that I am about 8 weeks pregnant, with morning sickness that is lasting all day and an appetite that will allow me to eat saltines and things with cheese sauce. Ugh. I can't wait until I get to the second trimester so I can lose this queasy feeling and get back to being energetic and excited. it is tough to be at work all day, but with the help of fizzy water I have been making it through somehow.

I wish there was a featherweights maternity forum. I don't feel too welcome on the pregnant/nursing forum probably because of my weight. Oh well, i will just hover around here for the time being.

Kwinkle Congratulations!

Chat has been slow this month!

I've been struggling with commitment since peeking below 120. Weight has been fluctuating up over 120 again, but back down to 119. I feel like I know exactly why I'm stalling (not enough exercise and even less diligence with dieting). Have been strictly vegetarian / close to vegan the past two days, not 100% raw but quite close, with lots of fruit meals (I've had a little bread, granola, cereal in times of weakness, and cooked beans/tofu for protein), and I'm feeling very energetic and happy. The only problem is that I am not getting enough sleep (exam season) -- but given that obstacle, I feel absolutely great.

Vacation week is over. I'm f-ing huge right now but putting myself on a no-junk, no-booze detox. I'm at that point where I don't even want to see anyone because I feel so fat. Didn't try to put on real clothes this morning, wearing "comfy" clothes to work today. I can't remember the last time I was truly hungry.

lackadaisy Huge hug to you. I know that weirdly jealous feeling ALL TOO WELL. You'll recover. One of the hardest things about weight loss is realizing that no matter how skinny you get, you're still the exact same person. No one ever admits it but I think we all sort of hope getting thin will straighten out more than just our body issues in life.

kwinkle Oh no! I hope the morning sickness goes away soon.

Dorian5 You'll find balance, hopefully sooner rather than later.

claire Good luck with IF. Anniversary sounds lovely, and cookies.

Hey, all! I don't think I've had two seconds to log on in about a week! My apologies for being in absentia. Hope everybody's doing awesomely!

I've stalled out at 115 for what feels like forever now, so I know I need to change something up. I've been running about 12 miles a week for two weeks, and I think all this cardio is making me famished. The next time I run, I think I'm going to go for 2 miles instead of 4 at a time. My knees will thank me for that, too, I think!

Quiet around here!

I have somehow managed to pull something in my lower back. Also I stepped on a nail this morning and bled everywhere, so I'm not feeling too optimistic about exercise for the rest of the day.

Eating will be 100% though - I am completely out of money with groceries to last me 3-4 days tops, so there is zero wiggle room for poor choices/buying junk food.

Fat fat fat fat FAT because I ate and ate all week, I don't even feel good, I feel like puking. Fast food over and over and over.

I wanted to be at 125 by May 30th, I was 133lbs on the scale today (mid-day) -- I've got to get back on track this week, I feel disgusting and my boobs are HUGE and don't even fit in my bra. (SO finds it hilarious.)

krampus - I'm sorry you stepped on a nail! Ouch. I just came back from the movies, I wore big yoga pants and a large T-shirt, so I can relate to the comfy clothes thing. Bleegh.

Hope everyone is well.

Dorian5 - I feel your pain. Every week I think "I'm starting again" and every week I manage about a day and a half before I succumb to chocolate. My dh's fault natch for having it in the house!! If it wasn't there I couldn't eat it.

I can't get my mojo back atm.

Luckily this week I didn't put anything on, although I didn't lose aything either.

This week definitely!!!

Robsia I have a few friends who ran the Tokyo Marathon who are struggling a lot with eating after the big race. I wonder if it's related?

Staying the same > gaining! I am up and down a lot. Really hoping to wrestle back the bear this week (I say this every week).

I also wasn't very good last week! I managed to do IF Mon-Fri no probs, but what I ate in the window left a it to be desired... FOOD PORN ALERT: I made the nicest muffins for my bf's mum (b/day + Mother's Day), jaffa cake muffins with jam inside the batter and chocolate on top. Obviously we have some elft in our flat and I'm succumbing to them left, right and centre. Grrr.

Also injured my leg so am out of running for a while, just swimming and cycling for me. I'm goiung to see the orthapaedic surgeon on Wednesday because I want him to look at my disgusting monster feet (bunions). I think my constant left leg injuries and the bunion are connected so hopefully he'll operate on them and that'll be the end of it.

So, this week i'll be better!