I can't beleive how much of a pig I have become, being away from you gals for the last week has not bein a good thing, I am eating everything in sight, and not even thinking about it. I'm so scared to weigh in I'm sure I'm back to 310 or more. I will weigh in on Monday and start fresh again. I couldn't even try dieting right now, there's absolutely nothing healthy in my house, no veggies or fruits. Lots of Pop and chips and nuts and chocolate. I am so sick of chocolate, and I also think I might be allergic to it, I've been having awful headaches lately, and they will start as soon as I eat chocolate, you think that would be enough to keep me away, damn these taste buds, they always get the best of me.

But other than that I had a very good Christmas
I got a George Forman grill, so I'll be able to make some very lean meals in 10 minutes or less, can't wait to use it. I'm starting on monday, no more pop, no more chips, and definetly no more Chocolate, need to drink lots of water, and start planning my meals and journaling again. Got a nice Journal for christams, maybe I'll turn it into an diet journal. It will be 1 year on Feb 11 since I started this weight loss journey, and I really want to have 50lbs gone by then. So I'll need to lose 20 more lbs, and that's quite do able. Lord please give me the strength I'm so sick of being fat.
I may have done something really stupid, I broke down and got son a puppy for christmas. I've been holding of for the last couple of years because I wanted to get a purebred, but there so expensive, anyway's, my mom's dog is alway's having puppies, so I finally broke down and took one of her's, the puppy was just to cute to resist, she's a cockapoo, mostly black, with white under her neck, and light brown, paws. The only thing is that she's an imbred, her dad is her brother, if you know what I mean. Son got frisky with his mother. She's had other litters, by her son, and the pups all seem smart enough, and their not deformed. Hopefully my puppy will be smart. Son named her duckie, isn't that cute, I didn't push it on him, really, I named off a list of names and that's the one he liked best, kind of strange for a dog, but I think it's cute.
I may have some pictures to send out quite soon, I made my mom take some family pictures of us, standing outside in front of a beautiful frosted spruce tree, hope they turn out good, made son stand in front of me, hopefully he hid most of my body, not that I should be ashamed to share with you gals.
Well lady's need to get back to work, so I can leave early,