then I ended up cheating a little last Thursday & it was all down hill from there. Ya see, I can't just get back on the ball after a cheat, i beat myself up so bad & end up eating like crap & feeling like crap for days after. Thats what I did this time, I stopped going to the gym & been eating as if food is going to be extinct. Well I really came to grips with myself & decided once & for all I am so done with this weight & need it gone NOW! I told myself this year will be my year & I refuse to go another summer being BIG. I still have just a little under 3 months to accomplish my goal of losing 50-60 lbs but when I say I WILL DO IT THIS TIME what makes it so different from all the other times iv failed?? What I am saying is I'm very excited to restart my "healthy lifestyle" again, but I'm also scared bc I've messed up so much what makes this time so different? i also am unemployed right now ( i got laid off from work & we automatically got unemployment compensation) & i figured why not use this time to really dedicate myself to this weight loss journey??? so I really have the next 6 months to go hard & DO IT. I was watching that MTV show I USED TO BE FAT & its so motivating! Especially bc they set a certain time where they want to reach their goal & thats what I've done for myself too. I know they have personal trainers&stuff, but I joined the gym that offers all these aerobic classes + everything else they offer at a gym & I have all the time in the world so I think dropping 50-60lbs by the summer is achievable & a few years back I remember going on a strict diet & lost 62lbs in just under 3 months & that was w/o exercise so I know I can do it BUT IM JUST SCARED THAT MY OLD WAYS WILL SET IN!! SO if you read this #1 thanks for hearing me out #2 encouriging words would be great at a time like this

thanks everyone! 3FC rocks!

