Thought it was time to post another update.
I'm nearly 8 weeks into maintenance, and, knock on wood, things seem to be going fairly smoothly. I've had a few mini-binges and one 24-hour period when I managed to eat about 3900 calories altogether, but I'm still estimating the calories for every morsel I put in my mouth and I still intend to pay it all off. Currently, my daily allocation is 1600 calories which I plan to raise to 1700 on Monday and stay there, but I'm going to try to average closer to 1400-1500 while I'm paying off my "calorie debt", which is currently about 8000.
That sounds like a lot, and it is, but here's another way to think about it: it's less than 100 calories a day for three months. It seems to me that people who aim for a calorie range could easily vary more than that over the span of months or years. Still, having the debt gives me incentive to rein things in until I pay it back, even if it takes me a while.
For me, having a daily budget and carrying over surpluses and deficits (I've rarely had a deficit, but I'm hoping that 1700 calories will be enough that I can sometimes "save up" for special occasions ahead of time) seems to be working out great. When I
have had binges or near-binges, I've reacted with a mental "well, that was stupid" but without guilt or self-loathing; at least for now, the emotional component of eating doesn't seem to be an issue.
I have gotten better at figuring out which foods not to keep around the apartment. I seem to be OK with individually wrapped treats--I bought a bag of Ghirardelli Peppermint Bark Squares awhile back that I still have a few of. Oddly, perhaps, it seems that it's a bad idea for me to keep popcorn kernels around. I bought a hot air popper a few weeks ago because I thought plain popcorn would be a good snack, but apparently it's like rice cakes for me--I eat some popcorn, then I want to eat lots more popcorn, then I want to eat something else! (This is part of what happened in my epic binge.) I should probably give away my air popper.
I realize that I'm still a maintenance rookie, but I seem to be in the right headspace so far. One thing that I'm handling well is the idea that having the scale stay where it is is a
good thing. I have some daily fluctuations and know how things tend to go on a 4-week cycle. I weigh daily, record weekly, and take stock of how things are going the Tuesday after TOM (which will be this Tuesday 2/15).
Hope everyone has a good Valentine's Day or successfully ignores it until it's over (take your pick).