New to the site, but not to the struggle!
The basics: 5'3" 182 lbs. = YIKES!
I'm a 28 yr old divorced mother of one and my son makes me incredibly happy!
Been in an on-again off-again relationship for almost 7 years with a great guy who has been with me through a huge weight roller-coaster. I've struggled with my weight since high school, but seemed to level out around 150 for most of that time. I guess I had issues with anorexia and bulimia in college but they seemed to die down on their own (?). Got married @ 18, had my son @ 19, got divorced @ 21, met this great (super fit & athletic) man @ 22... and within about a month of meeting he asked me to get on a scale.
It read 160. So I turned to extreme starvation and went from a size 13 pant to a 0 in 3 months. Never during that time was he ever negative or even commented about being over weight, he really seemed to like me just the way I was... but mentally it took a huge toll. My weight loss spiraled out of control and while I thought I looked amazing, I really looked weak and sick. One day I sat on his lap, and after feeling every bone in my body poking through my skin, he called me disgusting. I kept the weight off for a few months but sloooooowly gained it all back, and then some!
So here I am. I love to exercise, but I lack the energy or motivation to GO to the gym after my son is in bed at 8pm...
I don't know what to expect this time around, I just hope I can stick to *something* and lose all this excess *yuck*!
Thanks for listening; I feel better getting this out already
<3 T <3
