So, last year I was able to get below 300lbs for a very short time (I think my lowest was around 297-298lbs.). I was sooo happy to be below 300lbs, as my body tends to really make me feel uncomfortable when I am over 290lbs.
But, after dealing with craziness at work, feeling sad and blue, crazy dating relationships, break ups, not feeling appreciated for my skills, financial issues, etc., I ended up back over 300lbs and hovering between 305-311lbs.
Now, I should focus on the aspect that my weight was as high as 326lbs, and that I have overall lost weight in 2010. But of course, I am a little more negative minded, so I am focusing on the 300lbs aspect.
I am not saying that anyone is bad or wrong or less than for being 300lbs or larger. I am saying that for me, when I get over 300lbs, my body really, really feel it. At 260lbs I still have tons of energy and my weight doesn't really slow me down. When I am over 300lbs, I feel like it really shows in my face, etc.
But, I am soooo motivated right now and feeling so much happier and in a positive mood.
I am getting into my mid-30s, and while I am sad that I wasn't able to be the party girl with lots of attention, I think that I can still lose enough weight to be considered attractive and more importantly, healthy. I really want to be a mom, and at this weight, it may be very difficult (also, there is that tiny issue of trying to actually find a partner who isn't 100% crazy!).
I am cutting down on the sugar I eat, with the goal of actually no longer eating added sugar. I am cutting out beef and pork and fast food. I am going to take my vitamins regularly, and drink tons more water and tea and veggies and fruit.
I am so looking forward to being able to achieve this!!! I am praying and hopeful that 2011 will see a much thinner and healthier me.
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