Now, 7kg to go to my goal, it takes me ages to get ready in the morning. I use curling irons, I worry about my legs (stretch marks) and use fake tans and worry about it looking splotchy. I wear make up, I try on several outfits (I have so much more clothes and I cant stop shopping, now that i can) and I worry about whether my shoes go with the outfits or not. I wear high heels,which I never worre before because with the weight and height, i felt like a walking block of giant!! the whole exercise is so exhilarating and amazing and fun and also a bit exhausting! Its 10:50 at night (im in australia) and I am thinking about what to wear tomorrow!! I realise now how much fun it is being a girl and a bit sad that I have missed out on so much and worry that I'll never make it up and also that I gain the weight and lose this.
Does anyone else go through this? the dressing up, the obsessing about whether you look pretty and worry about hiding the imperfections caused by weight and bying clothes because you can and worrying about gaining the weight back and having wasted the money on clothes you cant wear anymore? I am sure this also applies to the guys out there too...
Everything is so much more fun but also more work. its weird coz I never really cared how i looked... well cared but wouldnt admit it because it would make me sad to realise how far i was from how I wanted to be.
Anyway some late night ramblings...




Congrats, it sounds like you're enjoying it!