Today I turn 27 years old. I celebrate the day of my birth. I morn the loss of another year I wasted of my youth being overweight and unhappy. My early childhood that I can remember I was not overweight, but from probably 8 to 13 I steadily gained. I spent my teen years uncomfortable in my own skin. From the day I turned 13 to the last day I was 19 I spent almost the whole time weighing 200 + pounds. My whole adult life so far I have been obese to morbidly obese. I didn't know what I would look and feel like as a skinny, healthy teen and I don't know what I'd look and feel like as a healthy, skinny adult.
I'm tired of just accepting that I can't get the weight off and I'm stuck like this. Because that's not true. I am what I am because I let myself be this way. If I choose to change, and become what I've always wished to be, then I can do it. I have to find the will power and drive to get it accomplished. My mind is set on changing my life. Not just "dieting." I'm not going to eat right for a couple weeks, decide I deserve a break, get off track and end up staying off track. I've done that a hundred times in the past. Food is not going to be what it's always been to me before. Food will not be for comfort, it will not be because I'm bored, it will not be for entertainment. The food I eat will be fuel for my body. It will do what it's supposed to do, keep me alive and help me first become, then stay healthy. Exercise will become my friend. I will start with just walking if it's all I can manage to get myself to do, but someday soon I will be able to run and will love it.
A year from now when I celebrate the day of my birth, I will also celebrate my new body and the healthy lifestyle that helped me achieve it.



