Its time...must start somewhere..

  • Well as the title says, its time. I am sure we all have hit that time in our lives where we say NO MORE! This is mine.

    I have stuggled with my weight since my first son (16 yrs ago) Never really trying to lose anything after I had him, it resulted in more weight just piling on. I would lose a little, gain a lot and continue on that cycle. Enter in my next pregnancy (9 years ago) and my weight ballooned even higher after. I went through a divorce, and then another terrible relationship, yo yo'd again. Actually lost about 30 pounds at one point, eating well, working out etc. Then it all came to a crashing halt and I gained it all back, and fast.

    Then I went through a period of 'accepting my body' thinking this is how it was always going to be. I am active enough, still grossly out of shape but I was in 'accepting mode' (ie excuse to eat whatever I wanted)

    Now I find myself just recently remarried and my husband eats whatever/whenever without gaining an ounce. I have managed to keep up with his eating habits, but I am gaining (cruel cruel world)

    I stepped on the scale last week and thought there must be a mistake...so I tried it again the next day...no mistake. It read 254 pounds. I always said I would never let myself get over 250 pounds and here I am. (I also remembering saying to myself many years ago that I wouldn't let myself get over 200 pounds!!)

    The last few months have been pretty stressful, just getting married, work is insanely busy, I find myself not eating all day then just binging at night. I wake up in the morning and my body aches from carrying around so much extra weight. I love hiking and the outdoors but I am out of breath walking up my stairs to my bedroom. I am sinking into a depression because of it, I can feel it.

    The time has come to do something!! I know what I need to do, its just the doing part that isn't happening. I eat way too much fast food and snack too much. I need to eat proper balanced meals and start up again with the walking and hiking I used to enjoy so much.

    I want to wear cute sweaters and leggings, I want knee high boots that fit, I want to put on a pair of jeans and not have muffin top, I want my snuggle up in my husbands sweaters on chilly days, I want to shop in 'normal' stores and I want to stop feeling ashamed about the way my body looks.

    So yah... hi, nice site here, I think I'll stick around for a bit
  • Hi and welcome to 3FC.

    Good luck with your goals.

    Hugs
    Michelle
  • Hi and welcome!
    This is an amazing group of people and you will find the support here. Good luck on your journey. Just remember it's mind over matter. You can conquer anything.

  • This is the right place for advice, support, and encouragement.
    And you are right...it IS TIME! Knowing THAT is the first step
    Hugs and support on your weight loss journey
    Look forward to watching your progress
  • I totally understand you. I was so amazed the first time I stepped on the scale and saw 200 pounds. I still wonder how I got there, and to 240 (which i think was my highest weight). Now I am trying to loose the weight one day at a time!!! Good luck!!!
  • Welcome and good luck!

    Dhani
  • Welcome Jenny to 3FC, we are glad you are here!
  • Good luck with your efforts!!
  • Thanks everyone for making me feel welcome