I realized this weekend that there are a number of things my size is preventing me from doing now that I was able to do before. One of those things is gardening.
I love flowers and my sister offered me a bunch of perennials the other day. I told her I'd gladly take all she wanted to get rid of--then I realized, what am I doing? I can barely bend over long enough to tie a shoe without gasping for breath. How on earth am I going to bend over long enough to plant a bunch of flowers? (Kneeling is absolutely out of the question. I haven't been able to do that in a long time either.)
My dh and I always enjoy having a garden too, or I should say, we always USED TO enjoy having a garden. My living room is full of seedlings that I started, and this year I'm actually DREADING having to plant them. I just know how hard it's going to be trying to contort this body and move flexibly enough to plant what I've started.
I told my dh this morning that I'm not excited about starting our garden this year. In fact, I would almost not mind at all if we didn't plant one. (Almost.)
This is a big smack upside the head for me. I've ignored a lot of little things that my weight's prevented me from doing, but when it comes to something that I might *have* to do in the future--feed us from our garden--that's really bad.
I know I have to keep trying to get some of this weight off me. I'm exhausted just thinking about it though.




