OK...I have had some issues the past week or so. I started my TOM a week ago today...and despite trying to mentally prepare myself for a sluggish metabolism and potential gain, I couldn't. I had just hit the 20 lb loss mark and instead of feeling elated...I felt frustrated and hopeless. I do not know why. I don't know what triggered it. It just seemed so daunting to lose more. I felt like it was impossible. I stuck with my food and exercise plans all last week...even if I was a bit reluctant...but then THIS WEEKEND happened. OH BOY. Friday night, I was still within my caloric range, but a lot of those calories were not the best variety (I had half a buffalo chicken wrap for dinner and some creamy cole slaw). And then SATURDAY hit. I did a light workout in the morning because I had to drive 40 miles to my Mom's with my toddler...and I was great all day. Fantastic, really. Until that night. My husband and I saw a movie...Crazy Heart (awesome!)...and I resisted the temptation of buttered popcorn and nachos and pretzels. I made it through like a champ. We got to the restaurant for dinner, where I had preplanned my meal. Red snapper with creamed spinach on the side. It was all good, until the WINE MONSTER struck! "Just one," I thought. "I deserve this glass of delicious fermented fruit!" And I had one. A Reisling with a hint of green apple flavor. It was delicious. Then I had another. Then I had to try a Pinot Noir. Then I apparently had to try 4 more glasses. OH LORD.
I was a hot mess by the end of the evening (some friends had met us out). I haven't had a drink since 2009, so I think I just snapped after all of the discipline and diligence that's surrounded this weight loss thing. Yesterday, I felt like someone had run me over with a Mack truck. I was also really pissed at myself for consuming thousands of calories in ALCOHOL. ACKKKKKK!I'm on plan again, I am, and I'm excited for the next 20. Has anyone slipped up to this magnitude? I feel like a total lush!!!!!


Don't be so hard on yourself...you're doing GREAT! You've lost 20lbs so far! That's a small child!! CONGRATS to you for that! Keep on going!!!
It's OK to mess up from time to time, so long as you jump right back on the band wagon!
Good job staying strong and continuing to strive forward!!