Ok I have all the knowledge (well you know what I mean), been on and off here for years now....here I am same freakin weight, feeling like crap about myself....so terribly down, have had some horrible circumstances in my life over the past few years you name it....
However, got a wonderful new workout partner. We started yesterday, walked two miles. She is my inspiration. She is yea well enough to make all us strugglers sick, 43 yrs old and a body of a 20 yr old. She never judges or criticizes me. Today will be day two.
I'm excited and yet a little scared......what will make this time different. Crazy I'm strong in every part of my life but this.....A battle never conquered..
Any encouragement would be appreciated

It is so wonderful you have a workout partner, I hope you two will support each other and lean on each other when you need to...and also give each other the kick you may need from time to time. My boyfriend usually does those "gentle kicks" hehe. 
of course you can do it! the power is within yourself!! waiting for you to tap into it! 