So about 2 weeks ago, I was having a heart to heart with myself.. doing some mental probing and it occured to me that I LOVE food (all of us do right?). I love the tastes of foods, the textures of some, and sometimes the "good feelings" that they can bring. I know to make this lifetime change work for me I can not tell myself I can never eat chocolate cake ever again, or I can't eat macaroni salad or I can't eat red meat. I have to learn to eat what ever I want, just in small, calculated portions. Ok.. this is all well and good and I can do that.
What I can't do.. slow down while I'm eating what ever it is that I'm enjoying at the moment. I'm not even sure how to put this into words to make it make sense... but I'll try. I think the reason I have spent sooooo many years over eating is becuase I will eat something that I enjoy eating and instead of eating it nice and slow and enjoying the taste for a while, I scarf it down and then want to enjoy more of that flavor so I will eat more of it.. sometimes up to 4 or 5 servings of that one thing.
I have not let myself just keep going back for more for over 3 weeks now... but I still find that I have scarfed down whatever it is that I'm eating and not enjoyed it like I could have if I would have slowed down and thought about the enjoyment I was getting from it. I end up being done with my meal or snack and sitting there thinking "Man, I wish I would have tasted that".
I guess I should put a sign on my fridge... "Slow down Sommer, there is no race to finish that plate".




