I know what you mean by feeling disgusted with yourself. I feel the same way. I too have been up and down, up and down. I have had successful back surgery (at age 21) but even now 6 years later I still have some recurring back problems that I know would be better if I could lose (and keep off) the weight. I am currently 228 lbs give or take, and I just started counting calories/Wii Fit to reach my goal of 150. After 150 I will re-evaluate. I have lost 40 lbs in the past so I know I can do it again - I just need to put my mind to it and really, really TRY. It is important not only for me to feel better about myself, but it will help my marriage (because I feel so icky I am not very interested in doing...it...anymore. In fact I feel uncomfortable with it because of how bad I feel about myself). I will be able to play better with my kids. I will be able to wear a decent size, have more clothes to chose from, etc. And I will feel way healthier. I cant weight. This time for me, is for real, and I bet you can do it too.

Hi and welcome to 3FC!

Read the stories in the Success Stories section here - http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/#success-stories

Tons of great inspirational stories in there for sure.

Good luck with your goals. You can do this

Hugs
Michelle

Hey there, and

You CAN do this, and we have a lot of spots that can help! Check out any of our plans by eating plan, age range (20-somethings, 30-somethings, etc), or amount to lose (you may want to investigate the "100 lb Club" forum).

Wherever you like, just settine in and get to posting! We can't wait to get to know you better!

Hey there,
Welcome! I understand the struggle and completely loathing the body you're in. Wanting to be able to do something, but physically have difficulties. I would like to wish you good luck! I'm also still new to this site (about a couple of weeks) and love it. I would recommend the blog tool!

<3 Molly

Mystic:

Welcome! I am also pretty new. You have come to the right place. Good luck!

Cheers,

J

Welcome, MysticBliss (pretty name!). There are lots of people here with very similar stories, so please don't give up hope because lots of chicks in similar situations have had very happy outcomes! I hope that you'll settle in, put some ice on your poor ankle and join in on the conversations.

I also feel disgusted with myself and Hate even looking in a mirror. I have given up on getting clothes that look good cause no matter what I wear I am still a fat blob....
I feel hateful towards myself and grossed out by my weight.

I also am new here looking for people who are going through the same things I am and that want to lose weight really bad and are bound and determined to do it this time.
I wish you lots of luck and hopefully I will see you around the boards.
You can send me a private message if you want.

Oh sweet MysticBliss...

You have no idea how I feel for you. I am also a yo-yo'er. It stinks! I just joined the community today and wanted to write to you before I even posted an introduction. You summed up exactly how I've been feeling.

And, it's crazy that when someone else... a complete stranger, feels this way, all I want to do is comfort them. When I say it to myself though...OOH! Get outta the way. Why are we so bad to ourselves? Nasty stuff!

Hang in there. You know you aren't alone. Clearly you know, like I do, HOW to lose the weight. That's never the problem. It's time I understand myself better or this problem will never get fixed. Is that your thing too?

All the best!~

Oh yes, this is totally my thing too. It's time for me to get to what's behind the weight issues, the food issues...what's really causing this, and that's the hard part I think.

Hi there, i'm new here and know exactly how you feel!
The only advice I can give you is dont look back now! We all have been a good or bad certain weight in the past and we are either happy or sad but the main thing is TODAY!
I know this is hard and i fight this battle everyday coz for every day there is an excuse as to why i should start tomorrow! I make my weight be the one thing in my life I'm obssessed about....so irrelevent of what you have eaten today....good or bad....you have to start now!!!! We all know what foods to avoid(i say avoid not ban) and which ones to stock up on! Its just making that transition and funnily enough when you are there you are happier...make lifestyle adjustments not changes! Don't let your weight be who you are....coz no doubt there is so much more to you than that!
I hope your journey will get easier and we are all here along the way!

Naz

I love this part of your post especially! Thank you so much.

I am 56 years old and a few weeks ago I reached my highest weight ever. Once I was a 133 lb woman, on a diet thinking I was fat. Then I was a 142 lb woman, on a diet thinking i was fat. Then I was a 160 lb woman, on a diet thinking I was fat. Everytime I lost a little weight I gained it all back and more.

Just recently, I got on the scales and found that I was a 193 lb woman. How did this happen? it doesn't seem fair. I don't think I eat that much. I disagree with the scale. Yet there it is. In the past 18 months i have gained 25 lbs.

I cannot fool myself anymore. What I realize now is that I am not going on a diet --I may slip up and call it that--but really what I am doing is redefining normal. I simply cannot eat like I have been eating ever again or I will one day be a 250 lb woman, then a 300 lb woman. Something has to change.

It sounds as if you also have this realization. Something has to change. Now for 4 weeks I have been writing down everything I eat. i have been honest with myself about what i am putting in my mouth, and i am beginning to come to terms with the fact that this cannot be a diet. I can never look forward to going back to eat the way I was.

That doesn't mean I am miserable. I am excited to discover new ways of coping. I am excited to discover what works for me and what doesn't. I have accepted that it will be a long process. And I know I must keep myself honest by writing it all down.

Get a notebook. Keep a journal. Come to 3fat chicks. Read success stories. Take before pictures. Try new healthy foods. Eat smaller amounts but allow for low calorie snacks. These are my strategies. Persevere.

And a quote I got off the inspiration forum: "Don't give up what you want most for what you want now."

Welcome and good luck ! You can do it ! Remember we were all new, once. Find a program you can and will do. Get started , now. Don't fret about what is past. Just get started . You can do it !