Hi,

Hope everyone is having an on program day.

I've been doing lousy-I'm waiting to hear back on a job interview I had two weeks and one day ago (but who is counting). The company told me they take two to three weeks to get back with decisions. I'm climbing the walls. I hate being out of work...I'm not coping with it well, and I'm just EATING. On top of that my cycle is messed up. I had PMS for eleven days straight. (not pregnant-did a test). So that's not helping either.

I'm also recovering from postpartum depression. I'm much better, but some days are just difficult.


I don't know if I should just try to concentrate on not GAINING weight at this point, and not pressure myself about losing.

Any input or feedback would be appreciated. Sorry to vent and dump so much on everyone.

Thanks for listening,
Sherry

Hi sweetie. I know how hard it is when you are at home. For me, the busier the better. So maybe a goal of not gaining would be good for now. But set some new goals, work on getting your water in, that way by the time your ready to try to lose again, the water habit is totally in place.

Just keep coming here and posting, that's the best thing you can do to keep in touch!!

{{{{{{BIG HUG}}}}}}}

Wow Suzie. You sound like you have alot on you're plate right now, and am not talking food. Take a deep breathe. I can only imagine the whole job stress thing. It's got to be taking it's toll. BUT, worrying yourself endlessly isn't going to make the phone ring. Oh, I know..easy for me to say. But really...you need to take a deep breathe, drink some water and clear you're head. Don't stress about losing weight right now. We all know we can't deal with too much at a time. Just keep you're water increased, try to eat op, and maybe take a walk here and there. Walking does wonders for the mind too. Were all here for you, and I will keep my fingers crossed about the job. Something good will come you're way, just try to relax. Do things that will make you feel better, not worse. I know too well how easy it is too feel horrible and lousy about life and indulge in food. Moment of satisfaction. But not really. You feel even worse. So, do things that YOU can control, and make yourself feel better.

Hang in there...and stay in touch.

Sherry, I said a prayer for you. Hope things start looking up for you. As Jennifer said, take a deep breathe and remember to take things one day at a time.

Carol
P.U.S.H. (pray until something happens)

Hey suzie - I'm prayin for you too!!!!! Keep that chin up, something WILL come along when you least expect it. Just remember where you are at now, and that you don't want to slide backwards, but at least try to maintain. I will be thinkin about you!!!

Sandi, Carol, Bethanne and Jenniffer,

Thank you all so much! You all made me smile. It is so nice to know that there are supportive people. It's just been such a struggle lately. My weight has been an issue for way too long. Each birthday I swear that I will be thinner by the next birthday, or summer or Xmas or whatever. I just can't seem to stick to just trying hard every day, or at least 75% of the time. I'm just so scared that I'm going to keep gaining and not stop. It seems the more I try, the worse I do. It's like I'm sabotaging myself. Instead of just little slip ups, I have this "so what, I'm going to eat it anyway, no matter how bad it is for me" mentality.

Being out of work has made it much worse. At first I did okay, but now I'm getting back into some very bad old habits. Instead of eating healthy lunches at home and saving money, I've been going out and eating not so healthy....I don't like or eat fast food, but there are plenty of other things to cheat on. And I have.

Well, I've rambled on enough. I just wanted to make sure to thank everyone for their support. I guess for now I'll try to work on drinking water and exercising so I can at least maintain the weight I'm at. So when I'm ready to seriously start, I'll have made those things habits.

Love,
Sherry

Hey..glad to see you're feeling a bit better. The most important thing right now is to realize what you've been doing. When I slipped back, I kept denying it..I wouldn't admit that I had just given up basically. So, you are doing well, even if you don't feel it.

Keep smiling..were all here for you.