So my ticker USED to say 175 as my current weight. Somewhere around February I gained back around 5 pounds and just kind of "hovered" there for awhile. I never changed the ticker cause I figured I'd be back there soon--it's ONLY 5 pounds, right? WRONG!!! Here I sit at 185 as of this morning. That "easy to lose" 5 pounds turned into a 10 pound gain! I am so mad at myself! My running (on the treadmill) became less and less and that is one obvious reason I gained, PLUS I just can NOT get control of my eating. Just recently I joined a gym so that working out would be fun again! And it is, I LOVE going to spin class, it kicks my butt, it's at 5:45 am so the day gets off to wonderful start. Somewhere in the middle I just throw it all away on anything! I realize that I can't have cookies in the house, but if I don't have them, I will just find something else, ANYTHING else! I have a mini vacation coming up in November. I'm going to see this band I LOVE in the U.K. and I just really want to lose 45-50 pounds before then. Which I think is totally reasonable. Why now after a solid year of working out (not eating the best, but better than now) am I self sabotaging? I can't find my self control or my inner strength. Help! Anyone, with ANY thoughts, ideas...anything! I really need it!!!
