Hi everyone! So I guess let me introduce myself and state my problem. I am a collegiate athlete and this is my second year playing softball for a division 2 school. I have gained a lot of weight over the past couple of years becuase i like food and it makes me happy; but my coach said if I dont weight a certain amount - 60 pounds less than I do right now by September, I wont be invited back. I am on a full scholarship at a very prestigous school and it seems so silly that I have such a hard time resisting the urge to eat unhealth but I do. As of a week ago I started the whole low carb thing, pretty much only eating meat and I lost about twelve pounds in a week but now im starting to gain weight gain even though i havent' changed my eating. I
feel so frustrated and panicy. I had knee surgery too like in October so i am in horrible cardio shape. my knee if perfectly fine now but its my shin splints that prevent me from running and it seems like i use that as an excuse not to get in cardio shape..blah! I really want to come back and play ball and kick booty and be in tip top shape to show everyone I can but I get so overwhelmed with how many calories i should be consuming and then I have to count calories adn then i dont know if im getting enough food from each food group. plus im a picky eaty and hate vegetable. Imma wreck and seriously depressed sometime because I feel like a rockstart using drugs; I have everything giong for me and my weight and fatness is holding me back. I dont know what to do to get to that size before september!?
Oh of course I forgot that part, I currently weight 287; I have a lot of muscle underneath all this so thats why i think i weigh so much, like i can push 600lbs on a hip sled easy, so Im functional fat not " can barely walk up stairs fat" I can swim elliptical I can pretty much do anything it just hurts when i run cuz the bouncing / excessive force on my shins. I haven't done any workouts for a week and I dont have any problems with my shins anymore but as soon as i start doing something like running or jump rope or whatever it comes back. I also just want to add that it really hurts my self esteem because of the fact that my coach tells me im worthless and fat in a sarcastic but " i just want a response" type of way like every time I see him even though I am one of the best players in our conference except Im slow because I need to lose weight so i will be exceptional if I can be quicker more mobile and oh ya fit into my uniform.




slap. People like that just rub me wrong.
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