
I've been carefully reading replies and I think that yes, it's a matter of timing, that in the beginning of a program, at least to launch it, it is essential to have something dictating my every move, besides just will power. Because I admit, when I'm hungry, or just think I'm hungry (about 10 times a day) I can not adhere to any fragment of will power. I have known times that will power has carried me through, but now that I think about it, (and I"ve carefully thought about it) those were times when I was already somewhat fit and happy about my body. The fact is, right now, at this end of 2007, I am very, very unhappy with my body. The new year may not see results if I just keep giving into this feeling of not caring enough. I know that many of you can relate. In fact, I have the behavior right now of a very obese and self destructive person.... though I suppose what makes it all not so dreary is that I have a great personal trainer in our GermanShepherd, and she gets me out hiking up the mountain 30 to 90 minutes a day. (some days I skip, when I'm really depressed and self destructive, and that's of course, cyclic).
So, given that I really feel resentful of having to spend any money or do math, what are my options ? You all are so resourseful , as a group, and I know this forum is what is going to make the difference this time. I thank you all, ahead of time, for bolstering me up and facing my next year with an attitude that this time I will find myself going in the right direction.

I'm not doing anything which excludes carbs, or requires buying packaged food. I am willing to get some better knowlege about calories, and to keep a food journal , but I intend to continue cooking everything from scratch, as that is my personal philosophy. I essentially know what to do, but find it impossible when I'm so unhappy physically, and frumpy, and give in to every little craving.
Okay, now I hope that I may figure out from advice, once and for all, my next step. DH's Company's Christmas Party tonight, I'm going to eat lots of fattening Mexican food, but tomorrow is the Day I will set into motion, a legitimate Diet Program... and be accountable to it!

Thanks again.






