I seem to have lost my mojo - AGAIN, so I would love to borrow y'all's until I can find it again.
This can be such a struggle. I seem to do great when I'm severely restricting and exercising tons, but I can't seem to figure out how to eat and exercise moderately. Since I don't know how likely I am to be able to severely restrict for the rest of my life, I've been trying to balance it all out, and I just don't seem to be able to do it. Either I eat just enough nutritious, low-cal foods to satisfy me and end up with fewer than 1000 calories per day, or I eat more food to try to elevate to at least 1200 calories per day, and completely lose control. (And I feel completely energized on fewer than 1000 calories, so long as I'm eating throughout the day.) So now, I am so tempted to just give up. If I can maintain at this weight, I will feel a lot more normal than I have for years, and I am a lot healthier (BP 104/68 with pulse at 58 today). But my patterns don't seem conducive to maintaining, either.
So, is it worth the cost? 'Cuz finding out how to fix my eating issues will continue to cost me a great deal of time, energy, and angst. I would love to be thin, and I just finished a grant application detailing many of the serious obesity-related issues that can completely derail my health, so I am terrified of diabetes now. In fact, I just recently had an uncle lose a leg to diabetes before he finally decided to have weight loss surgery. Still, I just don't know if I can sustain the level of energy it will take before I finally reach a solution to my all-or-nothing eating habits.
So - do we feel like the benefits we're getting out of this is worth the price we're having to pay? I trust that most of the answers will be in the affirmative, which is sort of the reason why I posted this in the first place, but I would be very interested in the thoughts of those who might be questioning as well.