Hi Michelle! *BIG HUGZ* You are more than welcome here hun!! I am so sorry to hear about your mom.

My mom and I were very close and it hit me very hard although we knew it was coming for years. She was diabetic, pacemaker, kidney trouble, cirrhosis of the liver, heppatitis C, I could go on and on! She was only 52!!!! Her death has actually been a huge inspiration to me to clean up my act. She always warned me of the dangers of drugs and alcohol so I never went that route. I drink maybe once to twice a year, never touch drugs. I never realized how bad food was and how many problems it could cause til I watched her die and my dad was 65 but also a diabetic, getting dialysis etc. That really hit me hard. My aunt told me that even despite the prescription meds and diabetes etc it was ultimately the hep that did her in completely.
I am sooo sorry to hear about your mom! It has been 2 and a few months for mine. If you ever need support I am here for you. If you need to pm me you are more than welcome as well. What did she pass on of?
Well about my weight. When Joe first came out here in Oct of 2004 I was about 250 and gained about 30 more while working for dominoes, dealing with a divorce, two parents dying back to back etc. It was the following June of 2005 when I realized how unhealthy my parents were and why etc. Joe was a big instigator. He is 5'10 and weighs 150!! So I seen pics of us and I was HUGE and he was thin and I seen all the love and adoration he had in his eyes for me and I wanted to see what he saw. Because of him and Gods help I started wanting to be healthy. I didn't want to die like my parents. I wanted to look great for him and see what he saw when he looked at me, etc.
So starting june of 2005 was when I decided to get up off my butt and start walking. I made slow changes and started eating fruit. If I could live the rest of my life healthily off pizza chips soda burgers and fries believe me I would!
I started cutting back and only eating out once a week, only sugary soda that once a week. By December of that year I was down to 250. The new year hit me hard and despite using an IUD I found myself pregnant. We were overjoyed, it was just unexpected. But the iud was still there. I stopped the walking and just tryed to eat healthy. I only gained 2 pounds by April but I know I lost muscle etc. We did marry 4-6-06(We had already been engaged since the previous year) Anyhow unfortunately at 4.5 months along we lost our son a few days after the wedding.
At the end of April I kicked myself in the pants and told myself to get back on with the exercising. So I did, along the lines I made more changes. We eventually switched to more chicken, not frying cept once in a while. More veggies, red meat once a week. Potatoes once a week. It is when I started cal counting when I started losing on a consistant basis. If I walk 30-60 minutes 5 days a week and eat about 1700 cals a day I lose 2 pounds a week.
The holidays hit me hard as they did most and January I got back on it but in Feb I had numerous flare ups including a teenager daughter who decided to start cutting herself, cps and the cops coming to my door due to my ex lying, (they shut the case) etc. It has been rough. But at least I am maintaining and I am looking forward to losing again. I hope that sums up what you ask. This is a lifestyle to me, its not a diet. So even when i get offtrack, I just jump back where I left off and keep going.
I try to incorporate the food I love into my eating. I have chucked the low fat approach as it seems foods are healthier in the original state they were intended. I just practice moderation. We have also incorporated alot of ground turkey! It is really yummy when seasoned correctly.
Yes it is so sad about Nicole. I watched the court stuff last week and am sickened about howard. Did you see the clown video? I really doubt he has anyones best interest at heart. I hope Daniel is the dad. I know there were angry emails but I can see why. He truly seemed to care about her and the baby and wanted her off drugs which is why he was shut out of her life etc.
I look forward to getting to know you and feel free to share anything else you like about what plan you are on, how you are doing, etc.