50 pounds gone forever - 3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community

rebeleagle1965 · 10-27-2006, 04:32 PM

I'm still not to my goal, and it will be a while yet, but I have to share this......
As of weigh in this morning, I have officially lost 50 pounds

It's actually more than that, because my highest weight since I had my last child was 215. But I count from when I started "dieting" in late March.
As I type this, I think I should be so proud of myself. I've gone from a size 20 to a size 10-but mentally I don't feel any less overweight. Does that make any sense? It's like my self image hasn't changed. Rationally, I try to picture 50 pounds of anything, carrying it around, wearing it, etc, to try and see myself differently, but when I look in the mirror I don't see that much of a change. Is there a magic number, like when I hit my goal, will it all just click? Or will I forever feel like a fat chick, no matter what the size in the back of my jeans says? When I WAS a size 20, I thought getting to 10 would be a huge deal, that I would feel so much better. And it did for a little while, when I could go out and buy that first pair, but not anymore

Jasmine31 · 10-27-2006, 04:46 PM

That is awesome! WHat helps me sometimes is too look at old fatter pics. I have one pic burnt in my head and I look so different now. I am sure you do too! Keep up the great work!

RememberHowToSmile · 10-27-2006, 05:08 PM

Good job that is amazing! You should be really proud of yourself. Good luck getting to your goal you are sooooo close!

LockItUp · 10-27-2006, 05:11 PM

Wow, that's so awesome!!! Congratulations!

I'm the same exact way. I give myself little credit for the change. My original goal was to get to 149, but I wasn't and am not happy yet. I just fit into a size 10, and at a size 18 (plus having never fit into a 10 since probably 7th grade). I look in the mirror and still see fat. I keep hoping at some goal number I will be happy, but that number changes as I reach it every time. I don't know at what point I will be happy or let myself really feel good about how far I've come. I think it's all part of the brain catching up with the body. I'm sure we'll get there!

KnitALisa · 10-27-2006, 07:53 PM

CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!

That is such an awesome milestone!!

I agree with Jasmine, dig up some old pictures. 50 lbs is a lot of weight, you'll definately be able to see a difference!

rebeleagle1965 · 10-27-2006, 09:55 PM

Thanks for all the support ladies

Pictures......that may be part of the problem. I don't have ANY pictures of myself at my high weight, or even of me now for that matter. I have avoided cameras like the plague

I think the last time I voluntarily took a picture was when I was pregnant, and it's just of from the neck down (I guess so it's not as identifiable

). I wanted evidence of how huge I was, or I probably wouldn't have taken that, either.
I've been thinking of changing my goal, too, but I won't until I reach it. 140 is on the higher end of a healthy weight for my height, but I set it at that because it atleast gets me there. It's taken me so long to get this far, and God only knows how long until I hit 140-I think changing it now would only depress me more

I have several pairs of size 8 jeans in the closet (non stretch) from a few years ago, and I'm hoping that will be what does it for me. I'd hate to work this hard for something and want it so badly, and never really feel it anyway-.

nineteen · 10-27-2006, 10:46 PM

That is so great!! It's such an amazing accomplishment. You should be SO PROUD of yourself! Enjoy, glow, be happy! You're SOOO close to goal, too

nineteen · 10-27-2006, 10:48 PM

another thing...you can probably shop for clothes almost anywhere now!!