Whatever you are feeling, you are making a healthy choice for yourself, and that is something to feel great about. I think it's normal for anyone to feel depressed about their weight at some point. There are so many really nice people on these forums and a ton of wonderful advice. I find it easier to tell a total stranger that I'm struggling with my weight than to discuss it with my husband. Maybe I'm just pretending if I don't mention it, he won't notice
At any rate, in the support groups, there is a newbies a buddies thread that just started for new members. There is a variety of people with different backgrounds, but we all have a common goal and are supporting each other. Check it out, join our weekly challenges, and feel like you are doing something positive for yourself.