[suechef]

Hi - I thought I would post this question here since there are so many successful "losers" here.

I started a serious attempt to lose weight in October. I was 185 (I'm 41 yo, 5'7"). I'm about 157 now, and should reach my 30 lb goal by the time my husband & I head south for a holiday (yay). I think I'll need to lose about 15 after that. 140 seems about right, but we'll see when I get there.

But right now I'm experiencing something weird. This is by far the most I've lost in 25 years and it's making me a bit freaked out. Sort of a weird mix of elation, and "oh no, what will this mean" and "surely this can't really happen" and I don't know what all, but there's a tiny voice that is just freaked out that I will be successful (and may want to sabotage me). I've had a milder version of this before with say, a 10-lb weight loss, and the response was basically to eat to make the weight loss stop, pretty much on purpose (albeit subconsciously, if that makes sense).

Okay, I'm rambling here, but does anyone relate?

Many thanks,
Sue

[India-Ink21]

I get that way at times. I sabotage my success all the time, I lose, I reward myself, I gain. That's why I can't lose weight.

[myowngoddess]

I can really relate to this although I don't know whether it is always consciously or not. I have gone from size 26 to 16 and the whole losing weight thing really freaks me out more than I thought it would. Some of it is peoples reactions, like, they are treating me differently when I didn't even know my being big was an issue to them in the first place. It is very confronting and I know is only going to be more of a challenge as I get smaller.
I have never been on a 'diet' or lost weight before and I need to accept that psychologically it is a big deal and the brain is a complex thing. I've only recently accepted that I am self sabbotaging even if I don't think I am.
Just another challenge to face every day!
Good luck.

[Gia]

I've been like that too, and I am like that now. I am making a concious effort to not self sabotage. It is weird, but I feel more naked (best analogy I can think of) when i get thinner - like people can see the real me more clearly and I am not sure I want that. But I have to get healthy, so I'm suckin' it up!