I have a really difficult time picturing myself as being thin. Well not thin, but at a healthy weight. I was watching tv yesterday and was just struck at how skinny this one actress was. No she isn't one of these super skinny look like she's going to keel over any second actresses either. She looks healthy but she is very thin. She was wearing these hip hugging jeans and I couldn't even imagine myself being thin enough to wear those type of pants. It looked liked her hips were about as wide around as one of my thighs. Does anyone else have these thoughts? Don't think I'm in somekind of self hate thing here. It is more simple amazement when I look at how thin some people are and sometimes complete disbelieve that I could ever be that thin.
I've only known myself as fat, i've never been thin in my adult life so I have no frame of reference. I imagine what i might look like, but it could be completely different from reality.
I know that eventually I will be there. There have been many ups and downs, but I am in it for the long haul.
I lost 33 lbs when I was 17 ( I gained it back), people actually noticed... but I felt the same. Looking back, the biggest difference was that I actually enjoyed gim classes at school.
Maybe that's the biggest problem I have... I cannot believe that I can lose weight and I cannot picture myself as thin person. I asked my cousin once if he thinks I could be thin and he just looked at me and said no.
You're not alone. I also look at some people and honestly wonder, 'is it even possible for me to be that thin?' I am also in disbelief at some of these times, and I think it is largely due to the fact that I can't think of a time in my life, childhood included, when I wasn't overweight. So the concept of 'thinness' is completely foreign to me.
However, I also can *imagine* myself as thin and I'm quite excited to see how I really will look once I've lost a lot of weight.
No. I can't even picture myself as having already lost 59 lbs. so imagining myself 41 lbs. lighter is beyond my comprehension. I only see the number on the scale.
The last time I got my hair cut, I asked for a 2X smock because I was worried I couldn't fit into anything else. It really hung on me, and I realized that I just don't see that I've lost weight. I've got a 2X body image in a sz. L body.
Well, in my short 15 years on this planet, I've never known myself as anything but fat, so, no, I can't imagine it at all. But sometimes, if I turn sideways in the mirror and suck in, I'm like "WHOA NELLY I'M GONNA BE HOT!"
I think the last time I was 'normal' weight was when I was about 6 or so ever since then I've been at least 20 lbs overweight, lots more now of course so I have no frame of reference either.
A flat stomach. That's what I have a hard time imagining. Even one with a pooch.
My little sister is thin and has no butt (like myself), and big boobs (like myself) and sometimes I wonder if that's what I would look like but... we still have such different bodies.
Currently, I'm ALWAYS picturing myself thinner because when I catch myself in the mirror (off guard), I'm shocked. I mean SHOCKED at what I see. Then, I wonder, "what did I expect?" Well, a little smaller stomach and not as thick! Where did that other chin come from?
<sigh> more angst here... the last time i was at goal weight, i weighed 150. my ribs showed and i had no energy whatsoever. i had a doc around then who, at my first visit, came in staring at my chart. and his rirst words were, "you gotta" and then he stopped dead. he said again. "you have to" and stopped dead again. and then he looked at me, and looked at my chart, and put it down and didn't say A SINGLE WORD ABOUT MY WEIGHT!!!!
that was a long time ago. and i never felt thin. i looked at my ribs and it didn't register.
and NOW, after losing all this weight, i don't recognize myself. and we all know i've been having problems with giving up clothes!!! this time it's last year's coat. it was a major accomplishment for me to buy it. and as the winter wore on, the coat got bigger and bigger [notice how i didn't say i got SMALLER AND SMALLER!!!]
and now, it just hangs and bags. i bought a GORGEOUS new coat last week. and i've been wearing the old one!!! i refused to put on the new one.. and i saw what was happening so i enlisted the help of a co worker who is very kind. i wore the new one today. not comfortable with it yet, though.
I've been over 200# since I was 14-15, so it'll be a treat in itself just to get to Onderland, just to see what I look like at that point. I am hoping to lose the beer gut I got in college, and the yucky arms and apron under my belly button.
But yes, I have a picture in my mind of what I might look like at goal. I'm blonder & tanner, but I look good!
I can certainly picture myself thin (or at least a healthy weight) because I was that up until I was about 40. Having said that, even though I've lost over 100 lbs. so far, I don't see myself as being anywhere near thin, and not because I still have some weight to lose, but because I have so much loose skin and flab that I still feel fat. I've accepted that I'll never be as thin or as toned as I was "back then" and am just glad to be healthy enough for all the activities I do now and that I look okay in clothes. What's more difficult to accept is that the more weight I lose, the more energy I have and the younger I feel - but when I look in the mirror this older woman is staring back at me!!! When you say you're a thin person trapped in a fat body at least there's a chance the thin person can take over - but when you're a teenager trapped in a middle-aged person ...
Sometimes I think "I am doing it! I am living in a normal sized body and looking great!". Other days I think "When did I get put into this bigger body?".
I have just made the switch from plus sized clothing stores into the regular shops. Right now I feel as if I am trespassing every time I shop. I keep expecting the store clerk to come up to me and say "You do not belong in here!" and send me back to the plus shops (which in Canada are VERY limited).
Sometimes I can't really see the difference in my body shape/size from how I was 75 pounds ago. Just further proof that so much of loosing weight is a psychological endeavour.
Its funny that you should mention that you feel like a trespassing when you visit the normal sized shops! I feel the same! I'm down to wearing some size 42's and 44's, which is right at the upper limit of what is carried at normal stores. I went shopping at the gap and bought some jeans and felt totally weird about it.
Right now I am in the process of getting back down to the weight I started at. The first 3 weeks of October was a solid binge (booze and food), and I will finally admit to putting on over 20 pounds (yes, that is true). All of my clothes were tight and it was horrible. So far, in the 3 and a half weeks I have been very good and exercising etc. I have lost about 15 pounds of the 23 that I put on. By the end of the month I hope to at least be back at the starting line and ready to make forward progress again!
I think with all of this massive weight gain and dramatic weight loss that I am screwing up my metabolism. I know that I made mistakes about how I was going about my weight loss, but I believe I have learned from them!
Yeah, Plus Size shops are super limited in Canada ... basically you have 2 or 3 choices. Well .... at least it makes my shopping trips quick because once I've scoured those couple stores for clothes, there really are no more options!
i can't really see myself where i want to be. supposedly, i have about 33 pounds left until "goal" but i feel way moer than 33 lbs overweight. i want to wear hip huggers and look cute... but never in my life have i done that! my body image is pretty screwed up, i often think i'm bigger than other girls who are much bigger than me.
and yeah, it's hard for me to stay away from the plus size sections. but when i try stuff on, it's a laugh!
Do you picture yourself as being thin?
