Ready for a new month / new start!
I was really excited for the new month; I've been feeling really motivated to get on track with more healthful eating and a more consistent exercise regime and ready to start September with a bang. Unfortunately, today was really busy, coupled with the holiday weekend atmosphere, and I ended up making not so great food choices (pizza and ice cream for lunch). I also feel pretty cruddy sitting here winding down the day!
My boyfriend is very sweet but doesn't understand my rocky relationship with food. He knows I love ice cream, so he always wants to take me out for a treat, but the truth of the matter is I don't really want it, but when tempted my body tells me I NEED it and I just can't say no. Or I say no and he will convince me with the usual platitudes - "come on, it's a holiday/weekend", "You ate great all week and deserve a treat", etc. It doesn't really take much for me to cave in and I really need to find a better mechanism to field those situations. I've tried talking to him about my goals and why I want to do them (i.e. eating well makes me happier overall, more motivated to do other things like exercise or do fun projects, etc.) but it never seems to stick. He LOVES food and says that eating pizza and burgers makes him happy but that just doesn't work for me. I'm really getting worried that the only way for me to get into a healthy routine may be to remove those influences from my life and focus on me.
Anywhoo, didn't mean to go down the rabbit hole there! The moral of my story is that I plan on being better tomorrow. I went shopping and prepared some healthy, easy to grab food so I have no excuses. Sundays are yard mowing days (with my manual push mower) so at least I'll be getting a decent amount of exercise. Monday we're headed out on a day trip but I've already planned some healthy snacks so I don't have to cave and hit up McDonalds.
I hope everyone had a great start to the new month! Cheers to positive changes!
AllyG- It is so disappointing to hear that your cousins made fun of you as a child; family should be the ones supporting you no matter what! The personal satisfaction of being at your high school weight would be nice, but also try not to forget that you've made a lovely life for yourself and their opinions are not relevant to your level of happiness and satisfaction with your life. I wish you the best of luck and hope you find support here as you're working towards your goals!
Last edited by gardner177; 09-01-2018 at 09:55 PM.
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