New year. Fresh start!
The last few months have been an emotional roller coaster for me. Job stresses (as in, interviews but no actual employment happening), money stresses, travels, a death in the family, car issues, basically living with my parents for almost a month, more travels, and general family issues.
*whining vent follows, feel free to skip*
Over the last month, I've been from Columbia SC to Virginia Beach VA to Columbus OH and back again. I've applied to countless jobs and gotten 2 interviews, and both times someone else was hired because (they say) they want someone "long term" when what they mean is "we don't want to hire you and pay you $3/hr more than someone new off the street".... nice. I've been to a wedding, a funeral, and a 75th birthday party. I had to hug my great grandmother goodbye knowing it was probably the last time (she *is* 93 after all, and in failing health). I got to meet my cousin's 3 week old baby. I had to pay $1200 to get my vehicle fixed. I had to tell my husband his grandmother had an aggressive relapse of her cancer and wasn't expected to live more than 72 hours (then she did pass away and his family basically forced him into doing the graveside service -he's studying to be a pastor- for her even though he said he would rather not).
Needless to say, my emotions were all over the place and I'm an emotional eater. Something had to give, and I just couldn't handle counting every thing that went into my mouth. Traveling and holidays didn't help that much. I can't tell you how much fast food and fried goodies I've had. I had no access to my calorie counter even if I wanted to *try* to keep track, no computer to mess with, and no exercise equipment. The traveling aggravated my knee that doesn't like to stay in one position too long, so walking hurt. Yeah, I've gained back a bunch of weight. I don't know how much.
*done whining*
Anyway. With the start of the new year, I've decided to get back to my healthy habits. I lost over 50 pounds in 2011. I can do it again in 2012. My goal is to hit Onederland by my birthday in October. My mom was watching the 700 club and heard the guy on there say "it takes 21 days to establish a habit." So, for the next 3 weeks I will exercise daily, make sure to drink all my water, eat lots of fruits and veggies, and generally go back to the healthy lifestyle I had going on for so much of 2011. I will not weigh myself until February 1, because the number would probably make me regress even more, and I don't want to stress the number.
After much praying and talking with my husband, I'm at peace with my financial situation. Debt happens occasionally. We're in a pile of it because of my husband's school loans for his master's degree, so the car repairs are just a drop in the bucket. I will look at our debt like I look at my weight loss plan. Small steps and I'll reach my goal. If I keep chipping away, eventually I'll break through. I am finally home with my husband and my cats, and we have the next 3 weeks with NOTHING to do (his classes don't start until the end of January) so we will get back to the basics of us instead of worrying so hard about everyone else in our respective families. Also, he said he'll be my gym buddy.
Overall, 2011 was great and I plan on making 2012 even better.
I've missed the support of this forum, and I'm glad to be back.
Happy New Year!
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