[BornConfuzed]

Hello everyone,
I am not new to 3FC but I am new to the PCOS forum.
I am 25 years old, and I have had PCOS for the past 4 years, but was only formally diagnosed earlier this year.
I have always been obese/overweight, on and off diets and exercise, the only diet that ever worked for me was South Beach diet.
For the past 10 years my weight has been between 175 and 185, but over the past 18 months, I gained 35 pounds. I can't really explain the weight gain, I just stopped trying to lose weight.
Fortunately, I restarted on 22/07/09, a low calorie low carb diet this time with metformin (haven't started exercising yet), and in 9 weeks I lost 20 pounds.
I am proud of the weight loss but I can't stop beating myself for not starting metformin earlier, and neglecting myself for such a long time.
I can't help but wonder that if I started metformin when I was 185 pounds 18 months ago, I would've been at goal weight now. Instead I gained 35 pounds, bringing me to my all time high, and despite the 20 pound loss, I still have 15 pounds just to reach my baseline fatness.
I know I should be thankful for the weight loss, and I know that it's better now than never, but it's just so frustrating that I dont feel that the 20 pounds loss is an achievement because in my mind I am still 185, and I wont really start celebrating the loss until I am down to 185.
I don't know if this even makes any sense...

[JigglyBits]

BornConfuzed, I understand how it is. I personally was put on bcps which weren't any help when it came to weight loss. And now I switched to Actos and my weight is coming down slowly but surely.
I wouldn't beat up myself about it, you found what works for you so make the best of it and make up for those lost/regained pounds by focusing on what works and doing your best not to go back.
You've lost 20 lbs in 9 weeks, that's amazing for someone with PCOS!! Imagine if you started doing some activity
PCOS can be frustrating, and what works for me may not work for you or the next PCOSer. But we're all here together experimenting, learning, sharing and supporting each other. It may not be curable but it is treatable, it will take us longer but we'll get there