I figured out my Goal weight!
So I finally figured out my goal weight today. And this is a weight that I feel I won't constantly have to "fight" to be. Its something I am 100 percent confident I can reach and maintain. Right now I am 320 and my goal weight is 200. I'm not trying to be skinny I am just trying to be healthy and strong. I don't feel that I have to be 150under to be that. Another reason why I set my goal weight at 200 is because I don't feel like constantly trying to lose weight. What I mean is that I feel like I'll never be satisfied. Right now I wish I can be anything but 320. I wish I can go back to 3 years ago when I was 270. But when I was 270 I wished I could go back to 250....and so forth at each weight. I feel like I just always been struggling to be something that I am not, I can never just be happy. I am overweight, because I like to eat, because I like food! There is nothing more that I love than a good, tasty, meal. How can I change that part of myself? How in the world can I completly give up good food (which in my case is bad, ie. anything with carbs, sugar, and fat lmfao!) and still be happy with myself? Moderation right? Ok, so thats one part down. The next reason I decided for 200 to be my goal weight is because I'm lazy! I don't feel like being drenched in sweat and out of breath. I want to be able to exercise and feel comfortable and get some peace out of it! Yoga, ok so thats down pat. I figured 200 is a good number to be at. When I think of being 200 pounds (and I can't really remember when that was, I think it was middle school) I can't really think of a feeling. I think of nothing related to weight issues, and thats a thought I can live with!
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