[KPfinnegan]

Hi Everyone -

I'm new here and I will apologize ahead of time because this might be long. I am really, really depressed tonight and I just need some advice.

I have been overweight my entire life. I have a best friend who I have known all my life, she is also overweight although she is much bigger than me right now. My friend has made the decision to have weight loss surgery and has been talking to me a lot about it. I am now wondering whether I should just suck it up and do it.

Back about ten years ago, between low fat and low carb dieting and lots of walking and weight training, I had gotten myself from 350 down to 250. Although still overweight, I felt great. I ended up hitting a plateu and when I went to see an endocronologist to find out why, I found out I had PCOS. I started different courses of meds and slowly started gaining some weight.

Then I met my wonderful, very skinny crazy metabolism husband about 5 years ago. Without even realizing, I started packing weight back on as I ate away with and baked for him. I gained almost all of it back. I still can't forgive myself for that.

We have been trying desperately to get pregnant but with the weight and the PCOS, it has not happened.

I am so utterly torn right now. I am miserable at this weight, back to the place where I fear small plane seats and have no clothes that fit. I know that weight loss would also increase my chances of getting pregnant.

All this said - as great as weight loss surgery sounds - something in me feels like it's just not right for me. I have done it - why can't I do it again? However, losing so much weight so quickly sounds like a dream.

I am just very lost tonight and very down. I really need support and advice to help me figure this out. I am grateful for anyone who can help.

[treezuk]

Hi KP Finnegan

I am so sorry that you are feeling down at the moment i totally understand where you are coming from...I too have been talking this issue through my my DH recently but i dont think its something ic ould ever do if the push came to the shove i dont think my hearts really in it its just a descion i would make for the purpose of losing weight...

I to have fertility issue's and have been refused help my my local fertility clinic until i am 180lbs as you can imagine that has made me very depressed and upset as losing 100lb and being able to get help seems a long way off...I managed to lose 30lbs but with everything going on with those dr's back and forth i ended up putting most of it back on..I have now taken thing sinto mu own hands regarding fertility drugs i have obtained some for myself and will give them a go and hopefully... As for the weight issue i am just trying my best to eat healthy & exercise when i can and hopfully i will see come benifits but im not expecting miricles...

I just wanted you to know really that at some point i think everyone feels how you are feeling right now and even comtemplates surgary as a way to get you where you want to be..If you think that is the way you want to go Cool but just think about it carefuly before you make any descions cos althought the wight might come off easy doesnt mean that its the right thing for you and your health has with like evrything there is always complecations..and id hate for you to end up worse off..Its a decison that will take a long time and thought to work out if its right for you...

Are you still TTC if so come over to the PCOS & TTC board we are always there to have a chat with talk about everything and give each other advice for new treatments were trying or just general support it would be great to see you over there if you feel thats something you would like to do..

Good luck with everything and if you ever need someone to talk to just PM or if you want feel free to add me to MSN if you would like just PM and il give you my details....Good luck with whatever you decide hunni and just remember that for every down you have eventully you have to go back up to the top again...

Take care and speak soon...

Teresa

[pedsowk82]

I totally understad where you are coming from. I've only known since August that I have PCOS and insulin resistance. Before I found out, It didn't matter if I was eating right I still wasn't getting the weight off. I gained back 45 pounds in 3 months. I think the importnat thing is to forgive yourself. What happened happened but moving forward and starting fresh really worked for me. Finding something that works for you and that you can live forever (since with PCOS it is life long) is going to be importnat whether that is surgery or something else. I joined this group when I started getting depressed about it and it has done amazing things for me. Everyone here is very friendly and supportive. Good Luck to you. I hope you stick around here and get to know some people!