[kickingfat]

You can't imagine how happy i am to find this forum. I have been searching for an online community to help with motivation and support; nearly everyplace I've been is full of folks with 25 pounds or less to lose.

I have reached a point where my weight is affecting my health. I've recently regained 89 pounds of a 120 pound weight loss and it's really really frustrating.

I know what to do, I know how to do it. I just don't.

Haven't been, anyway. Too soon to say "I've got it again," but I've been doing well beginning last Sunday. That's when I weighed and got the horrible news that I was, at 328, 11 pounds over even what I imagined. My lifetime top weight (i hope hope hope) was 363.

Ick. Anyway, lots to do to get it off, so I'm eating lower carbs and lots of healthy stuff related to inflammation. Also working out regularly. Have to keep going or else I'll die. Which would be better than being confined to my bed while the medics tear out the wall of my house in order to release me.

It's not that bad, but I think I have the capacity to eat myself up to that state. I just go blind or something, oblivious to it all. It's not as if I didn't know I was gaining weight over the last 18 months, and it's not like I wanted to. I just did it. Didn't stop. Didn't pay attention when I should have. Crazy stuff, this food addiction.

Aside from fat, my life is great. Hope to get to know all of you. Sorry so long.

[Get n healthy]

Hello

Oh my gosh. Your post could have been mine. SERIOUSLY. You will LOVE this site. LIke you said, it is SO nice to be surrounded by people who need to lose more than those vanity pounds. To be surrounded by people who when their weight fluctuates, they can gain a 100 pounds. That is what i have done too. I lost over 110 pounds, only to gain most of it back. I went from 308 to 193, then back up to 290. Now i am on my way back down again. cause i guess it wasnt fun enough losing it the first time. ha ha.

Food addiction is crazy. I just spiral out of control. Seriously, binge, binge, binge. It is disgusting really. But i know what you mean. It got to where it was effecting my health again. And there is just no excuse for that.

But like you said, you know what to do...its just a matter of doing it. So lets do it. Venture around this site and you will find all kinds of cool little areas. Challenge areas, exercise areas, anything you can imagine regarding weight loss...it is here. Enjoy and stick around.

[Heather]

WELCOME!!! I've lost 120 pounds and am terrified of that happening to me!

I hope you'll join us on our weekly numbered threads. That's where the action is. Don't worry about trying to keep up with all the personals.

And, if you're working out regularly, check out our exercise thread! We track minutes exercised and are nearly at our goal of 200,000 minutes of exercise this year!

This is a great place!!!

[kickingfat]

stacy :-) nope, wasn't fun enough doing it the . . . um, wish it had been my first, but it was about my 5th time. sigh. i know this can be the last time. we just have to make it a priority.

heather ~ wow! the change in you is remarkable! and no better inspiration than what you've done. i think it's a good thing to be scared. i think i got too comfortable and maybe a little too cocky thinking "never again."

thanks for the welcome, you two. and for the tips ~ i'll hang out here and check the other threads. and yes, i work out. 50 minutes cardio daily since sunday. will get back into weights starting friday. nice meeting you :-)

[BXGirl]

Hi Kickingfat,

Welcome!

I am still a newbie here myself but definitely not new to the whole up and down weight roller coaster so I can relate very well to your story!

I'm glad you found your way here and I hope to see you around the boards!

[Heather]

kickingfat -- Yes, the fear is definitely helpful. Getting complacent would be the biggest problem... And coming here regularly is also very good to do, for so many reasons and on so many levels.

[NotTheCheat]

kickingfat -

Originally Posted by kickingfat

I know what to do, I know how to do it. I just don't.

Oh how well do I know this. I think this has been a major issue for most of us - translating knowledge into action.

[kickingfat]

thanks to all of you for the warm welcome. i can see lots of inspiration here already. you're great. yay! :-)

[Heather]

Getting back to Nancy's comment -- I spent YEARS knowing what to do and just not doing it. YEARS.

[InfertileMyrtle]

Welome! I can definitely relate to your post. I gained about 75 lbs (lost track) in the last year... and part of me still wonders how that happened.

I agree that it is nice to read posts from folks that have more than just few pounds to lose. My husband and I just started DietsTOGo where they mail you food to eat for the week. I lost about 2.5 lbs in the first week, and I've just started the second week. The nice thing about it is that there is no fudging measurements. Like, I think when I was counting calories on my own I was a bit (a lot) generous with my rounding. LOL! It's the 1200 calorie/day vegetarian program - and I actually feel like I am eating a lot.

Thats great that you exercise. I usually walk about 25 miles a week on the treadmill- although lately it's been more like 20. It's probably the only thing that has kept me out of the 400+ club. So keep that up, for sure!!

Take care!!