[shuxs]

It does not matter if its the most tinniest amount, my fingers always reach for my mouth, I don't understand it. Am on a diet and am loosing weight. Why do I still make myself sick. All my days I have fought a battle with ma weight. I don't like making myself sick, and I am ashamed to tell the doctor about it. Am scared of putting the weight back on again.


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[bren67]

Hi shux

I was bulimic on and off for around 10 years I have not made myself sick for around 3 months. The turning point for me was watching a programme and it explained the things which happened to your body over time when you make yourself sick, I have two children and the thought that I could be damaging my heart gave me a big scare, I knew this before yet still binged and vomited , but for some reason it just stuck in my head this time. I need to lose around 70lbs and have managed to lose around 8lbs and this is without making myself sick I feel very pleased with this accomplishment.

I was just fed up of always having my head down the toilet and decided that this is not the way I want to live my life, my teeth are quite bad, and my skin was too and i know it was down to the bulimia. For me I used to binge when I was unhappy, and its the only thing that I felt I could control in my life. Life at the moment is not easy and I have felt the need to binge and make myself sick but I have resisted it, as the thought of picturing myself in a bathroom with my head down the toilet just does not bear thinking about.

I did WW 3 years ago and lost around 3 stones but all it did for me was to make my bulimia worse, especially around weigh day, I did stick to the plan but binged between meals and made myself sick, I then decided that it was not the way for me, the added pressure of the weigh day in front of loads of people did my head in , all I can do now is take it one day at a time, if you can find the courage to tell your GP, they will be able to refer you to some sort of counselling or support group, you don't have to fight this disease on your own and you may need to examine the reasons why you make yourself sick.

good luck,




Brenda

[shuxs]

I don't even need to binge to throw up, If I eat a snack, healthy one at that, then I run right to the toilet. I don't know why I do it, I have just got so used to doing it thats its the norm: for me. Don't think am ready for the doctors yet, its sad as I have 2 kids as well, don't want to teach them this so they think its the norm. I just don't know what to do