You guys I need some support right now. Yesterday I was totally fine with what I've lost, how I'm feeling & looking and fitting into pants I haven't fit in yearrrrrs. But today I just woke up for some reason with a HUGE chip on my shoulder about the whole thing. I just feel resentful, so ill about the fact that my husband & family can just eat anything & everything they want; while I get to sit on the sidelines. I've been SO good, I haven't cheated at ALL, not even SLIGHTLY & I'm just still so angry. I'm not hungry, that's not the problem; I'm just so ill for some reason about the whole thing.
I think it's because we have so much family stuff coming up in late April/early May that I'm just aslgnsaklgasng about losing weight. I don't want to be on the sideline like "oh hey, let me eat my soy balls because i'm fat" because that's how it feels. I know you all probably think I'm ridiculous & such a big whiny brat; but that's the truth. I just feel so down in the dumps & I just can't shake it.
I've been OP for 2 weeks and I'm so proud of myself, but I just want to be *normal* again. I don't get rude comments or anything, it just hurts so bad that I've let myself get this way & get so out of control. I just want to cry.